Need to be strong in mind and heart

I need to be strong...

Cause I know me... If I don't motivate myself, I'll fall...

If I don't straighten my priority... I will be slip...

My feelings and emotion cannot lie...

I know I want to be like last time... cheerful and fun..

But it seems odd... I don't it will be the same...

Its not fun anymore...

There is no more bonds...

The path is different and I accept it..

Hurt yet heal everything...

Tired & strange at work...

Well.. just finisihed wrinting my report for the Seminar kepimpinan... Perghh... So pening my head... heheheh

Anyways today I met 3 familiar faces.... 2 of them I think my juniors from UiTM JB, and one is my neighbor...

And also today ramai giler org... like I tak duduk pun satu hari ni.. and guess what?!?!? first time ever my money biler time nak kena kire... short tepat RM10... hm... weird kan.. so yah...

I finished packing for tomorrow ...

MMS 27.12.09

Well it seems like I'm going to be jaga-ing mms lagi semester ni... I wonder what it is going to be like hm...

Well... firstly baju belum lagi kemas... malas nyer nak kemas,...

Pastu esok kena gi kerja sebab ganti untuk hari ahad,..

esok kerja 10am -8pm

sabtu pun sama

So meaning hari sabtu tu from Where I worked I I'm gona go straight to campus...

Rindu plak kat kolej...

hm... don't know lah...

btw I gona try update as frequently as possible k...

My F***ing result...

I sux big time huh?!?!?! I dah agak dah this will happen.. hm.. I am stupid...

My juniors accounting student last paper..

Is it wrong for me to call them "my juniors" or will they get offended by that statement "juniors"
Well I'm currently part 4 and they are just part 1 plus I'm way older then the rest of them. So.. hm...

Anyways this 2 pictures below is taken before their last paper. Student DIA part1 session july dec 2009

See the look on their faces... Can't wait till the exam finish and enjoy their holiday..

Happy Birthday Azim..

We've been friends since childhood in fact been best-friend as long as I could remember...

We've change... and go separate ways...

But still the friendship is there...

Even I'm not there to celebrate your important day...

I'll always right by your side...

I would like to wish Happy Birthday My friend...

Mudah -mudahan tah ko finish with flying colours...

and cepat - cepat tah bertemu dengan jodoh.. hehehehe...

ITs a Horse!!!!!

Okay the picture above is one of my mind mapping note I produce
during my revision on the subject Called LAw251...
I never do mind mapping before cause I hate subject that involve me to menghafal..
For example History god I hate it.. I always dreaming in the class..
all the dates and places and names.. hm..
I like something that can be answer using common sense...

Anyway back to the story... Affan introduce me to this method of Hafal-ing and mind map
On the sub-topic under "Offer" there is this is case : Guthing v Lynn. It talked about a horse...
So to make me remember... I use my professional drawing skill to draw a horse...
But then, when I showed it to Affan.. He said and I quote " macam babi hutan"
At least macam beautiful pony ker.. ape ker okay lah.. ni "babi hutan"
Erin and Ben also agreed with him.. Siot!!!!! like HAmpeh!!! giler dorang ni...

Don't no how to see the real talent on drawing betul... (hehehe..)

k.. tata for now...

LAw 251

This is the book that I am reading.. and trying to remember the facts, sections and cases...

SEE how TebAL the book is... my god!!!!

The one yang I fold is the one that I haven't covered yet.. YEaaa me... like the exam is on this coming 5th of NoV

Next exam -> Law 251 on 5/11/09

Well i'm over with all the problem I got for the past few days...
I guess the problem came when I'm stress with my first paper which P.R.
Thankz to Erin and Affan, I got over it...

After my P.R. paper I keep trying to focus on my Law paper which is around the corner..
I tried to make my own short notes but it turn out .. me copying the whole book.. hahaha

But still cannot stick it all in my mind...

At the same time, I taught Affan his weak subject.. Far100 which stand for basic accounting form 4/5 for me... like really easy yet he doesn't know how to do.. Actually he knows how but he is the type yang need logic explanation why is this and why is that.. (kinda like me dulu hehe).. Hopefully he could answer all the question because while I'm typing this blog he is in the examination hall taking the exam hahahahahahah...

Goodluck yeah Juniors Accounting student part 1...

Oh yeah I forgot to introduce to you guys.. Affan is my junior.. he is currently part 1..

I'm currently part4 and I don't know somehow I'm close with the juniors part 1 rather than my own batch or other parts...

Okay then.. blog again next time...

Nak hafal LAw ni current kat library hehehe...

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What Should I do?!?!?!?

I try to forget everything... put it aside... and forgive...

But it seems like every is getting worse...

I was accuse for something I did not do...

By someone/ a person I respect as my own younger brother...

I avoid from seeing people so that this story didn't reach to anyone knowledge...

I keep quiet and I denied everything.. So that things didn't get worse...

But he the one that open up his mouth ... telling people what he did to me ... telling people what I had done to him which is not true...

And what did I do.. just keep quiet..

Cause I believe truth will be told...

I try not to hate.. but its seem like it is impossible not to...

He told me he hate... never want to forgive me...

but I guess start to hate him...

Cause not only me.. everyone that close to he start to ignore...

And now I know the true colour of his partner...

I told she is innocent... but actually she is not... she is like needle ...

People keep on telling me stories about them.. should I believe them.?!?!?!?!

I don't want to see both of them..

Not because I'm afraid... Its because I don't want to swear and gain 'dosa' ...

And their face really make me want to puke..... argghhh...

What ever it is thank you to my friends.. especially my juniors that always be right by my side to cheer me up... and help me facing the day... and advice me... and give reason to stay back in campus... and and hehehehehe....

Thank you guys...

Raya raya raya.......

Photos will be post up let on when I feel like it...

Hm... so...

Today is officially the 4th of Raya... I still can't enjoy raya as I still didn't enjoy raya as I used to...

My mind is somewhere else...

I got lot of reading to do...

Starting from Monday next week.. I got quizzes and tests .. for the whole 2 weeks... EVERYDAY.

Then after 2 weeks is my final exam...

Like??!?!?!?!!!?!? MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven't prepared a thing!!!!!!!!!

none....

This semester I thought I could relax a bit but then..

This semester sucked up my brain ability...

Cause all the subject need my "remember" and "focus" strength....


Like for example LAW... Malaysian Economic... IT... Public Relations... and Arabic...

Especially Arabic.. I'm totally screwed...

Argh!!!!!!!!

Help me...

When can I start do my study...

Where is tuition teacher when I need one...

Today my family plans to go to "air hitam" then Perak.. to raya at my mom's punya sister...

I thought of not following... but since I'm the last son.. "yang bongsu kata kan" I must go....

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Guess the only thing to do.. read along the journey... hm.....

I'll try my best lah....

p/s Selamat Hari Raya to all and for UiTM buddy ingat ingat lah... yang kita banyak exam lepas raya ni huahauhauhauahhauahhahahahahah

HPPY BIRTHDAY YANA!!!!!!!!

SELAMAT HARI ULANG TAHUN!!!!
UMUR SEMAKIN MENINGKAT...
SO SEMANGAT PUN TIDAK BOLEH GENTAR!!!!

MUDAH MUDAHAN YANA DAPAT APA YANG YANA DOA KAN...
AMIN!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally the I got the answer... thank you...

" i moved on, i am happy with who i am with now. i am finally clear with what i want, i know who i want. and i don't want to live in the past" I re-quote what Her boyfriend quote from her...

I guess... shes right... I should moved on too...

But I think I have... moving on...

Just that... I hate losings...

Losing as precious as a friendship and relationship...

I did being hit with a similar statement by my brother...

Asking me to forget everything...

The past... the family-angkat I have, the experiences and friends...

But I said NO WAY!!!

Maybe I don't believe in long-distance relationship either love, family ties and friendship...

But still I secretly without telling anyone... cherish the bonds... keep it and store it.. hoping it will last...

And surprisingly.. it does last... still now..

I still in contact with my Brunei family - angkat.. my bestfriends...

Well yes not like old times but still they are in my mind...

This is just me...

When I open up my heart fully to some one I get emotionally attach...

They will never be forgotten... Even though it hurts badly to think of it...


I respect her decision... moved on...

Finally I have a reason to close this door, locked forever and throw the key so that I could never look back... and never talk about it...

Maybe by now... I could open up new doors... completely different ...

Takes time...

But hey... need to focus on my studies and career first then... this stuff...

Besides... I got friends to fill my time...

I let Allah to decide everything

kalau ade, ade lah.. kalau tak ade.. so what... Allah sentiasa membahagia kan umat nya in one way or another.. segala nya ada hikmah nya...

ku been tagged by Zura!

- known as : Mohd Ramdzan Ismail/dzan/jan/zan/ram/jandi
- born : 14th May 1987
- hair color : Black
- eye : Really Dark Brown

SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER...

- Fallen off the bed?:Yup
- Broken someone else's heart?: May be A long time ago..
- Had your heart broken?: Well yes many time.. but hey.. I still standing rite?
- Had a dream come true?: Well my dreams always turn out to be the opposite..

SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...

- Wearing : Sleeveless shirt and a khaki pants
- Listening to : The cheerful voice of family in the early morning...
- Located : My Brother's room
- Chatting with : No one
- Should REALLY be : taking a bath

SECTION 4 - DO YOU...

- Have any piercings : No
- Drive : Pretty much
- Drink : Well beside alcohol stuff then yes..

SECTION 5 - LAST PERSON YOU...

- Hugged : My mom (di pagi raya)
- IMed : Eraimi(My buddy)
- Talked with on the phone : Yana (Cuz she got free talk time on maxis due to her birthday today..
- Text : Yana

SECTION 6 - PERSONAL...

- What do you want to be when you grow up?
: At first I wana become a doctor,Now I'm guessing A lecturer suit for me... '''''''' I could also have the title Doctor when I complete my PHD. ANd maybe someday own a Mc Donald franchise...

- What comes first in your life?
: Family (including family angkat) and Friends!!

- What do you usually think about before you go to bed?
: People around me...

SECTION 7 - FAVOURITES...

- Show : Hm.. well just watch all..
- Store : do I have to choose??
- Food : Ayam masak lemak cili padi...
- Color : Range from White to brown to black... Basicly pastel and natural colour lah..

SECTION 8 - DO YOU...

- Like to give hugs : Yup..
- Like to walk in the rain : only if I have to
- Prefer black or blue : black
- Have stuffed animals : Yup (given by friends)

SECTION 9 - THIS OR THAT...(pick)

- Pierced nose or tongue : tongue
- MTV or BET : MTV
- 7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek : I have no idea..
- Chocolate or flowers : choc.
- Color or black-and-white photos : Colour.. tapi if ada sepian mode kan lawa..
- Stay up late or sleep in : sleep in
- Hot or cold : Cold
- Sun or moon : Moon
- Left or Right : right
- 10 Acquaintances or one best friend : Both.. To share everything
- Spring or fall : Fall
- Happy or sad : Both thats make my like..
- Wonder or amazement : hm.,...

SECTION 10 :Firsts...

- First self purchased CD : hm.. think dzan think
- First pet : a cat(an austalian cat given by jiran) called honey.. unfortunately kena curi
- First piercing/tattoo : nooo way....

SECTION 11 : LASTS...

- Last GOOD cry : Time mms early this semester.... hehehe
- Last phone call : last night..
- Last time showered : last night at 8pm..

SECTION 12 : CURRENT...

- Current mood : blank...
- Current food : nothing
- Current hair : a messed

SECTION 13 : WHO LAST...

- Made you smile : family...
- Saw you cry : all the pembantu mahasiswa... and the juniors.. hehehe

SECTION 14 : WOULD YOU RATHER...

- Be serious or be funny?
: Like to be serious always yet funny at times..

- Drink whole or skim milk?
: Whole Milk

- Spend time with your parents or enemies?
: Parents cause they are my banker...

SECTION 15 : DO YOU PREFER...

- Do you prefer gray or black : Black
- Lust or love : if i choose both??!?!?!?
- Sunrise or sunset : Both...

SECTION 16 : ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

- Do you like anyone?
: YES

- Do you believe in love at first sight?
: YUp but I never had one...

- Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl?
: USed to...

Busy busy busy .... Busybody?!?!?!?!?!

Well the thing about me is that I terlalu ada rase kesian...

Like I dont know how to overcome that feeling...

I didn't say that Im nice.. cause I dont think I am...

But yeah....

This is way... I don't want to be close to anyone...

Cause once I am close.. then I will care... and the level of my caring-ness will reach to the top-est level.. that at times.. something simple will make me sensitive..

But this is who I am....

Yes I can change.. but I think ... people need me to be like this...

I need my self to be like this.. cause if not.. my life will be just plain boring....

Well this is me.. what to do...

Hana Yori Dango .. Change my perception...

I just finish watching "hana yori dango" aka boys over flower.

All 2 seasons plus the final movie..

I was so nice.!!!!!

I love it...

Thanks to Ikki who introduce to me...

I was so sad.. romantic (but so jiwang... itu yang aku tak boleh handle tu.. giler ah..)

And on of the song in the movie really touch me..

It called:

Utada Hikaru – Flavor of Life Lyrics


Lyrics & Music: Utada Hikaru

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayonara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

tomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten de
shuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsu
ato ippo ga fumidasenai sei de
jirettai no nan notte? baby~

arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

amai dake no sasoi monku ajike no nai doku
sonna mono ni wa kyoumi wa sosorarenai
omoitoori ni ikanai toki datte
jinsei suteta mon janai tte

doushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to “uun. nandemo nai”
sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunai
sinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai
“aishiteru yo” yori mo “daisuki” no hou ga kimi rashii janai?
The flavor of life

wasurekakete ita hito no omoi wo totsuzen omoidasu koro
furitsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yo

daiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana mirai
teni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai
“arigatou” to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

translation:

“ありがとう”と君に言われるとなんだか切ない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法淡くほろ苦い
The flavour of life

There’s something saddening about when you tell me “thank you”
and the magic that stays even after goodbye
is a touch bittersweet
The flavour of life…..

友達でも恋人でもない中間地点で
収穫の日を夢見てる青いフルーツ
後一歩が踏み出せないせいで
じれったいのなんのって, baby?

At this, neither friends nor lovers halfway point,
like unripened fruit dreaming of harvest day
because you can’t take just one more step.
what’s with being vexatious all about, baby?

ありがとうと君に言われるとなんだか切ない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法淡くほろ苦い
The flavour of life…..

There’s something saddening about when you tell me “thank you”
and the magic that stays even after goodbye
is a touch bittersweet
The flavour of life…..

甘いだけの誘い文句味気のないトーク
そんのものには興味はそそられない
思い通りにいかない時だって
人生捨てたもんじゃないって

Shallow invites and dull conversations,
theres nothing there that can arouse interest in me.
Even when things don’t go your way
That’s no reason to throw your life away!

”どうしたの”と急に聞かれると”ううん、なんでもない”
さようならの後に消える笑顔私らしくない
信じたいと願えば願うほどなんだか切ない
”愛してるよ”よりも”大好き”の方が君らしいじゃない？
The flavour of ife…..

“What’s wrong?”, you suddenly ask. “Uum, it’s nothing”
but the fading smile on my face after “goodbye” just isn’t me.
The more i wish to believe (in us), somehow makes me even sadder
Rather than “I love you” isn’t “I like you” more you?
The flavour of life.

忘れかけていた人の香りを突然思い出すころ
降り積る雪の白さをもっと素直に喜びたいよ

Those times, when out of the blue, i remember the fragrance of the one i’d almost forgotten.
I just want to be able to enjoy the pure white of piled up snow!!

ダイヤモンドよりも柔らかくて温かな未来を手にしたいよ
限りある時間を君と過ごしたい
ありがとうと君に言われるとなんだか切ない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法淡くほろ苦い
The flavour of life…..

Rather than a diamond, All I want is a future thats soft and warm.
To be able to spend even just a limited time with you.
There’s something saddening about when you tell me “thank” you
and the magic that stays even after goodbye
is a touch bittersweet
The flavour of life…..

SORry guys...

Okay!!! Im so sorry to those yang terasa...

I didnt mean to not remember you guys punye birthday...

It just slip off my mind...

K Happy Belated Birthday to all of you yang the birthday aku tak wish...

And Happy Advance Birthday to all of you yang the birthday is coming but I maybe I will forget...

Hehehehe...

Hey... im only human you know...

I do make mistakes...'

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To: ALL my friends... Pierre s . ULF and RHANE... and that we know....

Tetty IzzaBelle

July 19 at 10:24am

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I know we don't really talk,
We're not really even friends now
But I want you all to know I'll be there,
Through the thick and through the thin
I wish we could still be close like before,
Like the way things used to be
I was there for you,
And you were there for me
Even though we're never talking,
Or together hanging around
I just want you to know,
I'll always be here to pick you up when you're down
my feeling says friends slowly moving away
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!
I still need ur shoulder to cry on
i still need ur support
Also Remember me next time you cry,
I'm here to help,
To be with you
Side by Side

p/s : Please friends, dont leave me behind :'(
ive been so messd n f*ck up lately...
everything seems not right

BECAUSE I THINK, im losing u all..... :'((

Nysa Pierre

July 19 at 11:54am

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tetty ku syg, once we are friends, we will always be friends :)
no matter what happen, no matter how fucked up we are, if u need us, we will be there for you :)

time surely flies by dear, we might been busy with our own work, our own commitment, our own life, yet I always remember each and everyone of you, eventho we cant always meet like we used to. because eventho m not the greatest friend of all, I will always love kamu :')

insya allah, i will not let u guys behind, u guys are the coolest the greatest the bestest friends i could ever get. and most of all, i love u guys.

we're not losing each other, as long as we have the faith and the trust for one another. no matter how far we are, across the continent sekalipun, on the other side of the world sekalipun, we are together.

I always pray for all of your success, happiness, wealth n health.
eventho we're not having the moments like we used to have everyday, remember, we're one, we're friends, we're sisters, we're brothers, we're bestfriends, and most importantly, we are family, a unique family, the loving family, the everlasting family :)


I love u guys

p/s : ramdzan, we miss you

pp/s : syg i love u

ppp/s : michael jackson, u are missed, rip

pppp/s : aku syg kamu semua semua pun, semua semua sekali

*paluk kuat2


with love,
nysa :)

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Butter Salleh

July 19 at 2:11pm

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"u guys are the coolest the greatest the bestest friends i could ever get"

thats true..


ka, dont say that. no matter what.no matter what. YOU GUYS ARE SERIOUSLY always be in my heart. i noe it sounds cynic. but its just so true. wen im with my others friends, i rather feel empty. something is missing. THE THING that WE ALWAYS HAVE. that i could never find in other. thats it, we will have each other. back side front ups and downs. no matter thru thick or thin life is.
you guys will always b part of my life eventho we dont hang o share shits, or good ones like we used too. but we will find our way to that again... eventually. just dont forget each other. just HOLD on to what we have now. im holding to that. we will have our moment together.

i noe we dont have that same old laughs. but lets make a new and GREAT one.

i think. my life with you guys are the best thing that i can ever ask for. its such a great adventure.



and i miss EACH one of you guys. ramdzan. everyone.

hugs kamu semua...
i LOVE you guys.

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Syu Avas Fongs

July 19 at 5:50pm

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to my dearest pierre,

For I am here
Though we're far apart
YOU GUYS IS always a part of me
When you're down and trubled
And you need some love and care
I'll be there to brighten up
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there


just msg or call
i'll give it hundred and 5 percent to be there..
to be around.



i miss you guys and sayang my pierre ..
hugsssss kamu kamu ...

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Farhana PY

July 19 at 10:21pm

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this is deeply from my heart.

you guys, the pierres.. are few things in my life that im afraid of losing.
for that i treasure every moment that we had gone thro together.
eventho i might not always be der for you guys..
but i will try my best to.
remember i will never lupakan kamu2 hingga ke anak cucu klu ksampaian..

tetty, ure not losing anyone
we still here for you with you.

i miss kamu semua jua and
i love you all..
hugs

D'zan Ismail

Today at 8:24am

Distance make us a part...

But it wont stop us from loving each other...

Silent makes us forgot...

But it wont erase all the memories we had had...

For you guys..

Still near...

Still in the same country...

For me...

Its hard for me to accept everything in one go...

I had to leave the place a grew up...

People I know...

People I LOVE...

Friends I would never think that can be my friends...

When it did.. I had to leave them...

Its hard... It hurts..

But this is where I come from and this is where I should be...

My love to you guys will never die...

As long as we still in the same century and the same planet...

There is a a way to meet...

Maybe not now ... maybe not tomorrow.. or even next year...

But trust me...

When that day come... It will be the best moment, we going to remember and cherish it till we die...

I think I'm settling in Malaysia.. Cause my families are here...

But I try to frequently visit my second families there...

When I start working okay?... I Promise you guys that...

Just never lose contact with me... I need you guys in my life...

Love you all....

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY IKKI!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IKKI!!!!!!!! YANG KE 19 YEARS OLD...

Okay..Firstly let me introduce this guy...

His name is Azwan Azroie

Nick name "IKKI"

relationship with me.. he is my Brother (adek)...

Well I know I know...

I'm the last child in my family but seriously.. I really picture him as my brother...

I will try hard to help him... I think he will do the same thing too...

Ikki I'm sorry okay about your birthday prank tadi...

I know I shouldn't involve your love life and commitment into the prank - ing stuff but...

Hey.. It works right?

I will always be your brother no matter what happen...

You can punched me anytime... even all if my teeth fall off... you still are part of my family...

Ill be by your side through thick or thin...

And thank you.. for being there for me ... and the support you gave me...

Love you my brother...

p/s to pierres & RHANE... I still love you guys... And wont forget each and every one of you...

I woke up at 10am just now...

My god ...

My head was spinning like a roller coaster...

My nose was hurt like someone put a big ball in it...

Damn...

Then I realise...

My phone...

It was shut...

Battery ran out...

I plug it into the charger then start switching it on...

BAPAK DIA!!!!!

I got miss called and messages from last night due to sleep early...

From my mom, my brother, E... and Y...

Sorry guys.. didn't realise it...

It was something I can not control...

I was sick and still am...

Hm...

Well the flu getting lessen...

and I prayed to god that by tomorrow it will be gone...

Pray with me people...

tonight I need to finished up an assignment with my group about the 5 forces by porter's..

Then At Midnight I got plans.. hahahaha...

I'll Blog about this later k?

Don't want to ruin the surprise just yet... hehehe..

Okay lah bye bye..

A Tiring day it was

Tiring day it was today...

Didn't eat the whole day..

Just had a "nasi goreng sotong" for dinner..

This was because of a program called "Module 4"

All semester 4 students must participate this program in order to grad later on...

The activity was kindda like a treasure hunt that used up your brain ability and your physical..

The slack was that I started up with a wrong foot

Where the program suppose to start at 8am

but I woke up at 8am by a friend who's telling me that one of the event person really mad at me

I went straight to wash and dress myself

When finally I went down to the hall

The person that was mad at me, asked me to drop and give him 25.(pushed-up)

And I did...

Humiliated as he asked me to in middle of the wide space parking lot..

I was a centre of attention..

After finished, I entered the hall like nothing had happened...

Ignoring the humiliation he given me I sat on the front row...

The night before I ate this medicine given by a doctor to cure my flu

Maybe the med was too strong for me...

Even I today I already done the 25 pushed up, I still felt sleepy...

In the hall, I didn't hear a thing...

My mind was somewhere else...

Can't even focus...

So I frequently went to the gents to wash my face...

After the lecture given by a staff from UiTM Segamat, we all gathered in front of the library

And that was where the program starts..

We ran, we asked.. We seek, we solved...

Everyone was tired...

No food was given...

No drink was given..

Well actually we were a breakfast of a bread and a small box of orange jus

But hey.. we suppose to be given a bottle of mineral water right??? cause it used a lot of energy and sweat pouring out...

We got second place, and we proud of it... cause frankly, almost all of the team member in my group, I never imagine to work with since they are from differ class..

After the program... I really feel tired till now... my god.. so I guess I want to go to sleep early... hehehe bye...

Penghuni - penghuni bilik A201 which is my room.

To think positvely..

I need to be alone at this time...

Need to think wisely...

Need to think positively...

Need to think critically...

I'm in need of help...

But the thing is no one know how to help me...

Rarely do you find me in sick moments where I just lay there on the bed...

But when I do get sick its look like hell (like now)

My head will be spinning like a roller coaster ...

My nose is running till it getting red-ish...

And my temper is not control-able...

Got sensitive easily is a popular activity during this days..

I want to talk, message and call and even chat through YM or MSN

but the only thing I manage to do is pouring my mind out through blogging...

hm... maybe God giving me a sign..

A sign saying that I suppose to be alone...

With no one to care and no friends to listen...

Peace out

Lonely...

Its really hurt...

I'm in pain right now...

Not because of a person or a thing...

Its within me...

It can't stop changing my mood and making my day worsen...

"It" is refer to the flu that I'm having since last Thursday...

I did went to the clinic the very next day which is on Friday since tak tahan...

But till now even though the medicine is nearly finish, I still not cured..

Help!!!!!!!!

I tried everything but non works..

I missed those ice cold drinks that ran in my throats...

I felt jealous to all my other friends...

They could study and have conversation with lecturers with any disturbance...

I sat there in the class quietly and trying to pretend my mind in the class

even though my mind actually disturbed by my running nose...

Oh God please help me...

Yes?! No?! Yes?!?!

Is it a mistake or is it a right thing to do?

I asked her to accompany me for dinner last night

Finally she agreed

But I should have known that yesterday is a Sunday night and it is the last episode of Mentor

So the number of people gathered and stayed at the front Tv. in the Cafeteria are unimaginable

I felt awkward when I first reach the cafe

Then I saw her sat beside her friends

I began to meet up my friends there and talked for a while

then I text her.. asked permission whether she sure wanted to be seen in the public together with me..

I replied its okay we are just friends right..

Then I began to take my steps towards her

Few steps left before I reached her table, I heard someone called up my name saying that my food was ready.

I turned and started towards counter

Paid for my food and walk straight towards her and sat beside her

I ate up my food while having conversation with her

then suddenly..Black-out...

We went back to our own college...

then the current went back on again...

I called her till my phone credits ran out..

During the called I asked stuff..

Stuff I thought I wouldn't ever ask

Did I make a mistake or it is just an opportunity for me..

I learned a lot about her now...

She tries to denies things but at the same she admits them...

But what I like about her..

She has the same principle as mine

So now we are like what people say " TEMAN Tapi MESRA"

No strings tied

Happy Birthday!!!

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First of all I would like to wish Happy Belated Birthday to Naqy ... sorry dude.. baru nak post up here.. sorry .. this is the only picture aku terclick di minda hehehhe....

And I would also like to wish Happy Belated Birthday to Erin!!!!!! Yesterday birthday dia... Ko dah tue DOH!!!!!!!!! Anyways.. perkenalkan she is my Bestfren here in Malaysia... My twins in crime.. and my sister in sad moments...















Back to the story.. yesterday kitorang gi makan kat Jusco Tebrau, kat Stone Grill. Then went to watch movie .. Obsession.. the movie okay lah not bad...

Thankz to Ainz for belanja-ing hehehehehehe....hahah pictures will be post up later..

Fin262 results

This is what I got for my fin 262 hehe.. berbaloi gak aku belajar kan??

Is this what I want?

For once I can see rainbow in the sky

trying to clear the cloud and make ways for sun to shine

I look at myself through a mirror that reflected the true image of me...

Is this what I want? I asked the mirror.

I've been lying t0 myself all this while.. I tried to be someone that I'm not...

Deep inside me, I buried the feeling I never thought would felt again..

Ever since I left her, the guilt inside me froze the feeling into stone...

Never do I care to look or search for someone to take or replace her..

Lied if I didn't tried but never things are working out...

Since the feeling frozen deep into my heart...

But for some reason I met this lady..

This cherish, sweet lady...

Never thought things would turns up side down...

I tried to stop it but I can..

The feeling that I buried deep inside is trying to come out...

It melts from frozen stone into something that is warm and peaceful..

But I try to slow things down

Cause I'm afraid...

Afraid that I might be wrong...

Maybe its just lust not the feeling that called LOVE..

I don't know what is LOVE anymore..

I felt it and left it long time ago..

But now it came back to me...

Is this just some test from God to me?

To test whether I can manage my life with everything...

Then I asked myself again

Is this what I want?

Isn't this just how I felt...

How about her?

Do I think she will accept me?

I don't even know her..

And what does she know about me ?

She knew that I've been gossip of having a relationship to my best friend..

which is a lady... just like her..

But does she know the best friend is just like a sister to me?

And could she accept the real me..

The complicated jerk that always trying to change and take control of the situation...

The answer went down to "I don't know"

I don't know, I don't know and I really don't know...

Maybe ... Just maybe I'm in LOVE... but it's to early for me...

I need to focus on my studies and my future career..

I like to message her and I like to call her...

but I would appreciate if she could understand me more...

cause I'm a one timer type of person, and proud of it...

I will let her go as soon as I know she has someone...

but for the mean time... I like to keep her just the way I found her...

Not more than that...

Just sharing thoughts and experiences...

People may not understand me...

but I have my reason...

and it is afraid.. and coward..

of being committed and cheated...

Is this what I want?

I DON'T REALLY KNOW ANYMORE

My days..

A lot of stories to tell.. but feeling lazy too write.. maybe next time.. just news flash.. tomorrow i will be start my semester 4 ...

*Fin 262* FUNDAMENTALS OF FINANCE

Kat bawah ni is all my notes time aku belajar fin262.. its easy actually tak tahu lah ape result yang aku akan dapat..
p/s.. the notes below is from my finding.. through my intensive revision during the up coming finals.. I took from various of source .. it might seem similar to anyone's notes but it is actually from myself.. studying n finding. Thank you :)

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Topic 11 *the last topic*