Friends are like diamonds to me... I never want to hurt them... I always try my best to support them... I will never ever want to lose a single friend... but sometimes I have to be strong and let them go...
When I still have a temper or use high tone towards anyone or scolded anyone.. this means that I still care for that person... but then when suddenly I just ignore everything as if that person is not exist then... this mean that I'm MAD ... and it is not easy to see me mad at someone...
Lately I just lost a friendship... A friendship bonds that being tied for almost more than 2 years. I tried to hold it... to save it but I just couldn't take it anymore... It hurts me so badly...I understand the situation and the problem that he or she is having that's why don't want to pressure more.... but if things is getting worse... effected me... my reputation.. and a lot of lies... then... who should I blame??? me?? still me????? come on... it happen to me.. not no one influence me... but I think.. its because he or she already found new friends... friends that are fun to hang out with... Jalan2 and all...
So now I just have to break it...
Now I think I realize something...
Things that make me had to pull myself away from others...
I think people treat me like a sampah...
Sampah before dibuang ianya diperlukan dan digunakan...
After that dibuang begitu saje...
and I'm like that...
When needed people search for me... ask me to do this and that....
when things finished they just ignored me...
My Friends always "merugut" if sekiranya dorang kena makan sorang2... but don't they realise that I always dine Alone without complaints.???!?!?!
Its okay... I don't asked for sympathy... because I already used to it...
Maybe I was born to please people... thats why... 3 days away from people release all the tension I have had for this semester...
Now I already accept everything...
I'm strong this way...
