YEAee..... WOrk

At last someone want to employe me...

Actually after my exam finished, I planned to work at the place is worked before, which is "Pasaraya Bistari" but then since if is full so they had to reject me...

Then Abg Mamat (My big bro) asked me to try apply kerja kat econsave-skudai parade and Giant Tampoi.. Well I did.. yesterday
In Econsave I just fill-up the form they said they will call me for interview whereas in Giant, fill up the form straight away interview at the HR department, she ( Pn Nora) said she gona called me today for the result..

I don't really put my hopes up cause logically, who want to employ people to work only for less then 2 months... like okay...

But then.. just NOW like about 6pm or so.. I got a phone call from Giant Tampoi, saying that I got the job as a cashier and tomorrow at 9 am start..
NICE...

At least inda jua ku boring duduk di rumah saja time cuti anie...

Seriously I still can't believe it...
Cause I did told them, that I'm on semester break... but still I got the job... WOHoooooo

I'm still new with the environment, so we will see tomorrow yeah?

Wish me luck...

Good Experience for me though first time working kat pasaraya besar...

Okay then more update tomorrow .. Itu pun if I'm not exhausted hahahaha

At last no lies,,,,

Now I tak payah lagi nak worry kena tipu lagi..
Segalanya dah terjawab...
I have expected this would happen..
Why don't you tell me early... kan senang..
Tak waste any time...
You did the same thing with Wong rite? I know...
But Sorry I'm not him...
Cause I never regret.... I do like you... and I fall in love with your voice... but you could never be jujur with me
So... yah..

At last..
You tell me the truth that you just want me to be your Friend... Just Friend..
Fine by me..
I like you.. and maybe hoping something out of it but... then I feel like you always tak jujur dengan I.. and I always pretend to be someone else when I'm with you.. try to change and try to understand your complex mind..

But then again thank you...
I will still help you with things but then not as close as before.. that how things goes...
I believe in what people say circle of life .. "what goes around, comes around"



I'm a guy..
My studies / carrier comes first
My family.. then my friends .... then baru lah my dream girl... which I would want the relation to last till eternity...

So now my head is back into the game...
Study.. 3 years without commitment? hahaah :P maybe... maybe not.. there are a lot of girls out there... hm... don't know lah..

There still N....
But She is too far.. I still don't believe in long distance.. and the fact that she still with her boyfriend make me think twice ....

Okay I'm Weird and pelik... the niceer word for it is COmplex hahahahhahahaha...
But I love myself.. That what ALLah Want me to do...

Okay lah piece out...

I will reveal my wings, and transform to the new me.. Where people want to be me and with me..
Remember that!!!

Kem BTN, Biro Tata Negara

BTN is actually the same as any other counseling camp..but this one give a big impact to me...

It showed me how Malaysia actually MErdeka.. And about the rights of malays in this country...

Frankly.. I never have any patrolism/nationalism... in me toward Malaysia.. And I before this, I don't give a damn.. about politics in this country and the malays rights and all but now.. I know... I should at least know and care about it... It's my country..

They showed me a video about how malaysia actually MErdeka.. and I cry!!!! seriously.. I cried!!!

They divided us into groups with our own facilitator.. I like my group cause the faci "Mr Izuddin" really know what he is doing.. and He motivated me on how to face the real world..















Thank you...

My 21st B'day

As all you all know.. my b'day is on 14th may...
First of all I would like to thank everyone that wishes me.. tak kisah, dalam talifon ke.. msg ke.. friendster, facebook, myspace even right here.. on my blog...

THANK YOU

By the way this is the first time my b'day fall while I'm in Malaysia... And I expect nothing out of it cause at that moment, I'm in camp.. "Biro Tata Negara" staying in Dorm with 50 people which all my friends,..
when the clock reached 12am.. at time I'm on the fone with with my friends out side the corridor.. When I finished like about 5 minutes later, I try opened the door its locked.. then when I tried again.. darn... the door opened but surprisingly all my friends gather around.. I tried to get back... They pull me in.. And carried me towards the toilet..
On da way.. dorang taruh bedak arah my face, my body and all.. gila.. like tidak bernafas di buatnya...
Then, dah sampai depan toilet.. slumber jer Dorang balik air kat aku pakai baldi.. You hoW cOld the water is!!! Imagine this, atas toilet ada air-con + kipas... Freezing giler aku....
Then kena baling lagi dengan bedak... like huahauhahau




I won't forget this year punya B'day... For the first time celebrated in Malaysia, with new malaysian friends.. and kena like this pulak tue... hahahah
Thankz guyz...

When I balik rumah.. I got B'day cards from NajaT... Like best gila!!! Dah lama I didn't receive b'day card from her..





She also made me a paper swan with writing in it... Like I used to make for her... and she gave me 3 extra blue papers for me to complete it.. and take pictures of it..
Thank you very much naj.. You do know how to make me smile... thank you....

Aku daH malas..

Actually ada banyak lagi post yang interesting yang boleh aku share tapi .. di sebabkan aku malas and the server kat sini like crap.. so biar lah...



Kenape aku macam ni?

Kenape aku selalu menyindiri..

Adakah rase malu kepada diri sendiri?

Adakah aku malu kepada orang ramai?



Aku dah tak nak sakit kan hati orang dan aku dah tak nak memikirkan orang lain...



aku merasakan diri ku seperti mayat hidup..

tak tahu kenape



Selalu termenung... dan blur blur...



ARGHHHHHHHH



Aku merasa tiada sesiapa yang biasa menemani ku...

Tiada seorang teman yang mahu bersama ku...



Adakah disebabkan kepelikan ku ini kot... hm...

Biar lah... everything what I here is crap .. crap crap crap...

AKu pening aku stress,,....

Biar lah!!!!!! tak lama lagi aku akan free!!!! free from this non sense.....

Aku akan lupekan semua yang telah terjadi.......

I will try to enjoy my semester break... and forget evrything@!!!!!!!!

bye bye

Ego?!..

This past few days are really hectic for me..
I dont know what to do and how to react

My anger and and my madness is really at my critical limit..
My negative thoughts is too much in my head and my mind just couldn't stop thinking whats next..

But thankz to ALLah everything is over...
And thankz to Him I could control my anger, madness, my mind and my fear...

What I know when I'm mad, I'm easily shoot someone.. try to scold anyone but this incident change... me..
My ego..
My negative mind set..
is getting better.. and able to control...

Patience is what Important the most.. And if something overwhelm my thoughts and feeling I'll pray and pray to Allah for wisdom not for money...

Now I know how "tenang" I can be when 'kita berserah kepada NYA'

.............

FinaLLy I know... N I agak terasa...

All this long, all the question in my mind finally being solve..
I got all the answer I want...
Not that She don't want to be jujur to me.. but she just skip this part..
She told me that She actually in love with me but at the same time still in love with Her exbf..
She broke up with him is because She don't believe in long distance...
But She still has feeling to him..

Yesterday night She actually confess to me, saying she is in love with me... :)
I like when She said that.. Then I kinda told Her that I love her too...

But then again...
I actually at the same time feel guilty...
Cause all this time I want HER to tell me everything about herself to me but I don't actually tell Her EVERYTHING...

The way She feel about her exbf is the same way how I feel about N....
Even tho I seek for other love but frankly... I still want N.. to be by my side cause I've known N.. for so long that till now we can't actually end up being friends.. Me and N.. is to special..

But I need to face the fact, unless miracle happen and N.. can be right here NoW then I could live happily with N..

But now I want to know more about S... cause right now I'll push aside the feeling I have towards N.. I do love S.. but I'm afraid...

I'm afraid to be with her... I'm afraid I can't give my full passion to her... I don't her to get hurt...

YES ! YES ! YES ! Seriously I do want to be with her but not at the moment..
I want her to know me.. deeply... I want ME to be special to her... and I want Her to be special to me.. Cause I think She is the one..

The One that will end up to be something, something that is for internity...

The moment will come ... Sooner or Later... but It will... (I guess) :P

Will She accept me?!
Will She Love me ?! As how I want to be love..

Thats the new questions and only questions that will stay in my mind until shes mine... and mine alone..

Insyallah my relation with her and my feeling towards Her still "berputik" but right now.. I want to know more about her.. to understand more, even tho I have to wait 1 or 2years to finaly understand her...

I admit She is special... Special to me..
Hopefully I won't have to give Her up to anyone.. cause I started to want this relationship to become something special...

Lastly... I could only say that... My heart just been stole again by a girl.. a sweet girl from Shah ALam.. and I kinda Stole Hers too...

I love you Biey...

Thank you...