Bila sudah serabut...

I just read one of my friends blog and it makes me realise something...
She wrote and I quote “sesiapa yg tidak merasa tenteram dengan Allah, tidak akan merasa tenteram dengan yg orang sekelilingnya”

Since yesterday and of cause today, I don't feel comfortable with the people around me.
I feel like people are trying to take advantage of me...
Thinking that I'm "PoPuLAr" therefore they force themselves to be close to me,
without once even think that I have a feeling...

Again & again I said to them I'm not "POPULAR" and its true I'm not...
Just that I tend to know stuff even I don't need the info.


I guess with the assignment, Drama (which consist of 50%marks), unconditional friends attitude & Final Exam yang semakin near...
My head + my mind dah serabut...

Serabut ... Serabut... serabut...

That is why starting yesterday I just shut myself...

Just ME, Myself & I

Just can take it anymore with other people's mind... Its complicated...

Nak bercerita masalah ngan orang lain pun takot orang tu salah faham...
Bila dengar masalah orang pulak aku yang pening...
SO?!?!

Hm....

Thats y I've decided...

I have to make a temporary changes...

it may takes days, weeks or even months for me to change back...

But if my guess is right and if I do have a TRUE & LOYALTY friends...(which I in doubt) they will stick by me...
whatever my temper & condition is...

Books + laptop will be my companion... My room + Library where I will be...

I know I'm becoming a nerd..so what... that is me temporarily....

*dzan is depressing*

Hari Yang SungGuh relaX dan Stress Free..

You know today, it seems like it was another sunday for me...
cause supposely I got class Human Resource Managemebt jer...
tp that class also cancel... so what did I do the whole day???!?!?!
well...
I tried to belajar by going to the library but then..
it lasted only for half an hour then...
I pinjam the last episode of buku Haryy Potter, naik bilik then start bace hehee...
then boring turun gi bilik part 2...
tidor huhuh...
biler it was like 4 or 5pm, it was raining lebat giler..
so I naik bilik continue bace my book..
heheh I felt I live in Heavy hehehe...

p/s I fasting today... so maybe this what u called nikmat puase... okay lah c u... bye bye...

Kami Menang!!!!!!

For your information I join nasyid competition once again huhuhh....

Yes D'zan join nasyid... eventhough it is not my genre but yes... I joined ...

Anyway... my group won!!!!!! first place baby... hhehehehe...

N I got a new title from my friends... Anuar ZAN ... ridiculous kan?? I know..

I know I ruin the whole nasyid thing.. but yeah.. heheheh at least my group deserve it hehehe...

I think this is the last time I ever going to join nasyid kot.. hehehe...



And by the way... the staff pun buat persembahan malam tu... best... macam choir... the back-up punye suare memang nicely done... I love it...

YE! Aku marah!!!!

I feel like screaming out loud!!!!!!!!!

"bodoh !! Bodoh!!! Bodoh!!!"

Tapi aku tak sampai hati.. memang aku sedang marah tapi aku masih boleh fikir dengan rasional...

come on my temper never last long... few minutes or hours will do... but dont.. I said DON'T ever trigger it back....

Thats what happen to my roommate... dia tahu dia bersalah... and konon nyer nak jumpe nak settle... tapi dia dah salah di situ... Sekiranye aku betol nak ckp ngan dia..
Tak perlu dia cari aku.. aku akan teros cari dia...

Tapi kenape tidak??? sebab aku masih fikir kan dia kawan aku... so aku diam jer... try to pendam kan supaya aku lupe... tp bodoh nyer mamat tu.. bile aku said NO! meaning NO!!!! jangan pakse....

Pastu.. lepas event... aku dah lupe kan everything... like biar lah... rite??

Ade pulak minah BODoh!!! ni message aku time aku tengah tido.... one of the team members dorang lah .... memang kene lah ngan aku... STUpiDO!!!!!

Tak ke perasan aku makin marah?!?!?! dah lah kacau orang tido.. pastu ungkit kan bende yang aku try and cube lupe kan.... MENYIRAPnyer!!!!!!

Now lets we see about the BOSS... like aku selame ni anggap dia macam "Adek" aku... aku selalu give him advice... tell u the truth ramai yang complain pasal "dia" even the team members themselves... but aku denied everything... aku still think he can be a leader...

Rite now I still think he can be a leader.. but he need to be a leader to himself first...

Maaf lah here I said it... I never EVER want to be involve with the JPK lagi....

even tho I knew... I was going to be stuck with them... because of the MPP thing.. but I will try to avoid them...

They CAN walk on their own feet.... Clearly they don't need me,....

OH NOoooo My Investment...

My test just now was so them easy... yet... I'm going to fail..... cause I forgot the formula like shoot giler!!!!!!!

BiLa dihujung pengajian....

Ini lah abg & akak senior yg dulunya time mms kitorang... mengajar lagu Wawasan Setia Pelajar....
Ni time dorang punye dayout game.... part of the task in "treasure hunt"

Module 5 & Nasyid practise

Yesterday was another tiring day for me....
My Uni got this thing ... a program which they do it every semester...
called Module...
This sems punye module is all about your interviews and ethics...

We are suppose to have it from 8am till 6 pm.. stop for lunch like about 12-2pm...
But thank god... Puan Suria manage to cut the time till 4pm jer ...

Then like around 5 or 6pm tolong Benny printing & teman Mia makan....

After isyak I thought to study a bit cause on Tuesday morning time class I got Test1 investment... but then again... my nasyid groud but practise kat dewan for sound checking.... like I ain't ready.... whua!!!!!!!! :'(


Pastu habis pukul 12.10am.... like very very letih....... sampai no voice ...

Pagi... tengah basuh baju... sambil tunggu baju spinning dalam washing machine I nak study sikit for test esok.... hm...

MAcam mane nak prepare ni......

Investment complicated tahu tak.......

okay lah bye bye...

DBS Part 6 Day - Out

The event was held in Hutan Bandar Putra ... And it was REALLY Happening!!!!

You must be wondering why I menyebok join part 6 punye event when I still part 5 hehehe...

 Me and Erin were there cause we are being specially invited by this lovely class to be their judges hehe...

In other words help them lah....

 

Me & Erin pernah satu class dengan dorang so we already know them quite well.. their attitude and all... thats why we don't mind..

When you get to know them , they actually FUN....

  

  

 

WE suppose to be at the venue around 8am, but due to minor transportation problem we arrived around 9 or so... but things under control...

Pagi ade breakfast, then ade minum minum... tengah hari makan kat rumah Pn Thahira...

NyaM NYum!!!!!!!

It was really enjoyable... and KENYANG event... like Pn Thahira plan everything perfectly...

almost perfect hehe :P until she kena tepong by them all... *no pictures sorry takot Pn potong markah pulak* with the help from miss Zafirah OFCUZ!!! hehehe :P

okaylah thats all for today... really exhausted .. and they made my day... 

At least the first day of me trying to recover from the sickness fill with laughter and enjoyment...

So malam ni need to start belajar since I dah sihat huhuuh....

JuST me? oR WhaT?!?!?!?!

Im' not complaining or anything but it gives me a smack on the head....

When you are good and healthy, people will stick with you and asking for your help....
but when you are down and sick... can you really expect people to help you?!?!?!

The answer is NO... in fact they will try to avoid you...

Maybe its just nature of human being to be selfish... wanting only the good one and eliminating the bad one...

I thought I do enough good deeds so that later on if I need support from anyone it is easier..

I guess I was wrong...

Someone told me that when you are sick, the pain is actually the amount of sin you had made and had to pay...

I'm in pain + everyone is trying to avoid me so that's mean I got a lot of sin huh?

Hm....

If that is so, I think now I need to be alone for awhile to recovered...

p/s about "avoiding me" part is just how I felt... I'm not pointing fingers to anyone... just that when I need someone to share, he/she is not there...

Stomach Pain & Vomited....

I'm seriously in pain right now....

Maybe it is because I ate to much chillies..

I had to go to the toilet every hour yesterday morning from 2am.. till 5 am... to vomit

I put a grip and went to class this morning.. but unfortunately.. every 10 minutes or so I had to excuse myself...

Then after class I decided to call my mom and asked her to bring me to clinic since I ain't got any money with me...

Benny also got the same disease like me... but then he kept on "berry"2x je not much of vomiting....

The Doctor told me that it is because the food I ate... Benny pun same... So he gave us medicine... for Sakit perut and Muntah2x for me... but Benny kene bagi ubat stop from berak-ing...

Alhamdullilah.. I tak lagi muntah2x.. tp the perut is still in pain.. so I tak berani nak makan nasi... I just gona eat roti until it is secure...

Hm... ape lah nasib aku kan...

Okay lah bye bye for now....

Hectic & Tiring

Sometimes I feel like giving up...
All the workload...
All the test.. and studies...
Add up to burden also my unconditional social life...
with my FRIENDS...
with lecturers & staff in the Uni...
with my Brothers...
my parents...

I'm not complaining with the way of life I'm having now...
The people surrounding me are meant to be in my life...
And I'm glad ...
They sometimes cheer me up
but also at time they made me wana cut my head off...

It seems like this week is one of those days..
that I should just put my head up and walk through it...

Its hard but I need and I must be strong...
Emotionally and Academically strong...

Please god... give me your wisdom... give me strength...
and let me be more focus on the right path...
The path that I planned 2 years ago...
Upon my feet touched the ground of a Country called Malaysia
ANd right Now
it seems like I'm on the "fun & games" routes...

P/s: I got sore throats + I'm joining the nasyid group for this up coming competition.. so how??!?!?!?? then ade quizes, test and asignments..whuaa!!!!! die die die die....