JuST me? oR WhaT?!?!?!?!

Im' not complaining or anything but it gives me a smack on the head....

When you are good and healthy, people will stick with you and asking for your help....
but when you are down and sick... can you really expect people to help you?!?!?!

The answer is NO... in fact they will try to avoid you...

Maybe its just nature of human being to be selfish... wanting only the good one and eliminating the bad one...

I thought I do enough good deeds so that later on if I need support from anyone it is easier..

I guess I was wrong...

Someone told me that when you are sick, the pain is actually the amount of sin you had made and had to pay...

I'm in pain + everyone is trying to avoid me so that's mean I got a lot of sin huh?

Hm....

If that is so, I think now I need to be alone for awhile to recovered...

p/s about "avoiding me" part is just how I felt... I'm not pointing fingers to anyone... just that when I need someone to share, he/she is not there...

Stomach Pain & Vomited....

I'm seriously in pain right now....

Maybe it is because I ate to much chillies..

I had to go to the toilet every hour yesterday morning from 2am.. till 5 am... to vomit

I put a grip and went to class this morning.. but unfortunately.. every 10 minutes or so I had to excuse myself...

Then after class I decided to call my mom and asked her to bring me to clinic since I ain't got any money with me...

Benny also got the same disease like me... but then he kept on "berry"2x je not much of vomiting....

The Doctor told me that it is because the food I ate... Benny pun same... So he gave us medicine... for Sakit perut and Muntah2x for me... but Benny kene bagi ubat stop from berak-ing...

Alhamdullilah.. I tak lagi muntah2x.. tp the perut is still in pain.. so I tak berani nak makan nasi... I just gona eat roti until it is secure...

Hm... ape lah nasib aku kan...

Okay lah bye bye for now....

Hectic & Tiring

Sometimes I feel like giving up...
All the workload...
All the test.. and studies...
Add up to burden also my unconditional social life...
with my FRIENDS...
with lecturers & staff in the Uni...
with my Brothers...
my parents...

I'm not complaining with the way of life I'm having now...
The people surrounding me are meant to be in my life...
And I'm glad ...
They sometimes cheer me up
but also at time they made me wana cut my head off...

It seems like this week is one of those days..
that I should just put my head up and walk through it...

Its hard but I need and I must be strong...
Emotionally and Academically strong...

Please god... give me your wisdom... give me strength...
and let me be more focus on the right path...
The path that I planned 2 years ago...
Upon my feet touched the ground of a Country called Malaysia
ANd right Now
it seems like I'm on the "fun & games" routes...

P/s: I got sore throats + I'm joining the nasyid group for this up coming competition.. so how??!?!?!?? then ade quizes, test and asignments..whuaa!!!!! die die die die....