Kem BTN, Biro Tata Negara

BTN is actually the same as any other counseling camp..but this one give a big impact to me...

It showed me how Malaysia actually MErdeka.. And about the rights of malays in this country...

Frankly.. I never have any patrolism/nationalism... in me toward Malaysia.. And I before this, I don't give a damn.. about politics in this country and the malays rights and all but now.. I know... I should at least know and care about it... It's my country..

They showed me a video about how malaysia actually MErdeka.. and I cry!!!! seriously.. I cried!!!

They divided us into groups with our own facilitator.. I like my group cause the faci "Mr Izuddin" really know what he is doing.. and He motivated me on how to face the real world..















Thank you...

My 21st B'day

As all you all know.. my b'day is on 14th may...
First of all I would like to thank everyone that wishes me.. tak kisah, dalam talifon ke.. msg ke.. friendster, facebook, myspace even right here.. on my blog...

THANK YOU

By the way this is the first time my b'day fall while I'm in Malaysia... And I expect nothing out of it cause at that moment, I'm in camp.. "Biro Tata Negara" staying in Dorm with 50 people which all my friends,..
when the clock reached 12am.. at time I'm on the fone with with my friends out side the corridor.. When I finished like about 5 minutes later, I try opened the door its locked.. then when I tried again.. darn... the door opened but surprisingly all my friends gather around.. I tried to get back... They pull me in.. And carried me towards the toilet..
On da way.. dorang taruh bedak arah my face, my body and all.. gila.. like tidak bernafas di buatnya...
Then, dah sampai depan toilet.. slumber jer Dorang balik air kat aku pakai baldi.. You hoW cOld the water is!!! Imagine this, atas toilet ada air-con + kipas... Freezing giler aku....
Then kena baling lagi dengan bedak... like huahauhahau




I won't forget this year punya B'day... For the first time celebrated in Malaysia, with new malaysian friends.. and kena like this pulak tue... hahahah
Thankz guyz...

When I balik rumah.. I got B'day cards from NajaT... Like best gila!!! Dah lama I didn't receive b'day card from her..





She also made me a paper swan with writing in it... Like I used to make for her... and she gave me 3 extra blue papers for me to complete it.. and take pictures of it..
Thank you very much naj.. You do know how to make me smile... thank you....

Aku daH malas..

Actually ada banyak lagi post yang interesting yang boleh aku share tapi .. di sebabkan aku malas and the server kat sini like crap.. so biar lah...



Kenape aku macam ni?

Kenape aku selalu menyindiri..

Adakah rase malu kepada diri sendiri?

Adakah aku malu kepada orang ramai?



Aku dah tak nak sakit kan hati orang dan aku dah tak nak memikirkan orang lain...



aku merasakan diri ku seperti mayat hidup..

tak tahu kenape



Selalu termenung... dan blur blur...



ARGHHHHHHHH



Aku merasa tiada sesiapa yang biasa menemani ku...

Tiada seorang teman yang mahu bersama ku...



Adakah disebabkan kepelikan ku ini kot... hm...

Biar lah... everything what I here is crap .. crap crap crap...

AKu pening aku stress,,....

Biar lah!!!!!! tak lama lagi aku akan free!!!! free from this non sense.....

Aku akan lupekan semua yang telah terjadi.......

I will try to enjoy my semester break... and forget evrything@!!!!!!!!

bye bye