Dituduh...salah ke aku??

SEriously... Malam semalam aku time lepas solat maghrib I was eager to do more revision... sebab exam pagi td... but semua hasrat hancur lebur bila I received a text messages from her masa lepas isyak... I feel stress and teros pening... mood nak belajar terus tak ade....

Dia memang saje jer ker nak down kan aku time nak exam ni???

Bila aku tak nak masuk campur erti nya AKU tak nak masok campur FAHAM!!!!!What is the point of telling me that I made ur mom CRieD???
To make me feel devastated??


If thats the reason... then CONGRATULATION !!! you succeed....

Hey you

YEs you... (you know who) If you read this I hope You realised that I'm talking to you...

"kau kan BEK" as you describe .. as in mengganjing & sarcastic giler... kalau lah aku tak fikir yang kite dah berkawan 2 tahun and aku dah anggap mak ko macam mak aku...aku dah lama call ur mom and tell her everything A to Z... tak perlulah aku nak jadi poyo and senggal nak bagitahu adek ko... ape barang... sorry ah... and about your sister aku tak bermaksud pun nak gtahu dia ko duduk luar... like I thought itu yang ko keep telling everyone that "Kak tinggal kat rumah along"
News flash... perempuan, macam semua kat satu kampus ni tak tahu pulak ko duduk luar.. so bukan dari aku sorang adek ko boleh tanye... banyak lagi sources dia boleh find macam.. facebuk...
Aku tipu orang, aku tipu lecturer.. just untuk kau! and... u give me shit!?!!


Seriously pasal ko jer semua lecturer cari aku.. semua orang cari aku... kenape dorang tak cari balak ko je kan senang..

For your information lagi, because of the complaint I'm receiving no thankz to you.. I know Everything what u do, tempat tinggal ko and even your ReSult...so??

Maybe ko akan cakap "so what ko dah tahu semua, ko nak blackmail aku lah, ugut aku?"
Well you have nothing that I want....

Just that yes I am Blackmailing you!!! If you ever contact me again lepas ni.. telling me all this shit... yang buatkan aku rase macam nak membunuh diri sendiri sebab berase bersalah then aku tak akan fikir panjang untuk menjatuh kan ENGKAU! and this is a warning!!!

You know what I'm capable of so don't try me... susah macam mane pun aku akan buat.. walaupun akan menjatuh kan maruah ko dan aku n merosak kan prinsip hidop aku...
btw...Friendship kite dah lama habis when u start Lie to me.. LIAR!!! so itu ko kate kawan.. memang aku kenal ko dah lama thats y aku tahu ko tipu ke tidak... and ini fakta bukan dari sape sape.. aku diam kan aje... tapi bile dah lama mengunung that why... aku jadi terlalu benci ngan kau...

About your mom don't worry, aku cuma akan balas text message dia if it concern about me...
if ade unsur unsur pertanyaan pasal ko... aku tak akan balas... sebab kang aku buat mak ko MENANGIS pulok...kan....

piece of advice: cermin diri tu... tengok betol betol... ape yng terjadi kat engkau... itu jer... jangan terpesong... Allah maha kaye.. dia akan bagi balasan yang cash delivery.... Change... sebelum ko menyesal... kesian mak ko... dia sanggup msg org lain semate mate nak tanye kabar anak dia.. bertape syg nyer dia kat ko... tp ko?? hm...

Hope this is the last time I talk about you in my blog... sebab pembace pun dah boring kot rase nye... so... if terjadi lagi, action will be make on u!!!!

k lah.. aku dah penat menaip... nak bg msg tak ade credit.,. so aku use belog je lah... biar semua orang tahu perasaan aku,..aku dah minta maaf tapi it seems like the message fail... so.. aku rase biar lah aku berdosa... aku rase lebih baik aku dose kat engkau dari kat tuhan...

BYE

Pagi yg tenang....

Wah ... paginyer aku online.... uhuuhh

Hm.. cuma pagi ni rase malas sangat bersiap untuk belajar... mungkin lepas membelog aku boleh rase initiative untuk belajar kot......
So.. people keep asking me "How is your Organizational Behavior Exam semalam?" and I'm bored plus annoyed answering it..

Cause... I couldn't finish 1 Freaking question in section B that consist of 20 marks out of 100 and also to top it up... another 1 question in section A which is 5marks also I couldn't manage to do...

Not because I'm stupid okay... everyone know how to answer all the question semalam maybe because the question was easy or the reason that everyone was actually work hard for it and study....

So.... why why why tak siap kan... sayang nyer...
its due to my stupid time management...

You know what I did??? Time orang tu cakap okay you may start... I boleh pulak doodling the answer on the question sheets.....

Doodling answer tak ape at least nanti tak lupe right??? I always do that.... but usually take up only 5 minits or so.... ni tak.....
I spent 30 minits on that...
So memang tak sempat lah nak siap kan semua....
I realised that I belom siap dua soalan is when the examiner said .."you got 5 minits left"

And I was like F*** S*** stupid n bodoh tak???!?!?!??!?! I got all the answer in my question sheet but 2 left behind tak sempat nak tulis .... giler ah...

If my calculation is correct... If all my answer semalam semua betol... then I would be able to get 75%. hm... plus dengan carrier mark... I think I would be getting A or A-... hmm... my dream of dpt A+ dah tak ade hhuhuhuuhhu....

Boreng....

actually I tengah online kat depan bilik ni sebab kat luar ni baru dpt wireless.... and angin dia sejuk and best jer.... macam mendodoi aku untuk g tido balik pulak....

Bah bruneian fren ku... doa doa kan tah aku inda malas macam dulu ah... hehehe... inda ku mau fail lagi nie...

And kepada semua orang Malaysia... " SELAMAT PAGI MALAYSIA!!!!!"

oh oh ... nearly forgot, kepada semua kawan kawan... yg tk anggap aku kawan pun jugak...yg actually menduduki exam MUET!!!!! good luck!!! and CayOKK!!!!!! hehehe.

K lah bye bye,..
adious migos...

Emo tetiba...

Actually I tengah do my revision ni Investment smbil dengar my mp3 then tetiba je lagu Kelly Clarkson berkumandang....

And the funny thing is that every time I heard that song ... it makes me shed tears... I don't know y... is it because at times i feel lonely and lost?!?!

Well I always lose people that I love ...

I made the wrong choice thinking that miracle will happen, I broke-up with the girl i love most, hoping that by then she would wait for me until I achieve everything... but now... now... end up she with some one else.... and us lost contact... hmm....

and then I my friends...

When I found the true batch of friends.. faith spread us apart .... I had to leave the country FOREVER...

N now... when I thought I had found the one true friend for life.. she is gone....

my social life in Malaysia is sux... I keep losing friends.... firstly the best room buddy (P...) then the groupies(F.... & D...) then the laugh-able duo (K...... & L.....) then the bro (i...) and now, the bff(E...).

Banyak kan the list ... i know... its me yg ada problem... so... tak ape lah...



now lets look at the lyrics and buried it in ur head:

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Okay I'm going to stop procrastinating :P

Hahaha like the picture above I'm sick and tired of procrastinating....
Bah belajar tah ku ni udah... bangun awal lagi... hehehe...

So far my learning period is "not bad" cuZ at least something masuk dalam otak right...

Just pikir cia... jumaat ani ada exam Organizational Behavior and Sunday nya Investment... mana jua kan ku blajar tu...
Mestilah aku focus more on investment cuZ I think iya lebih payah rather than O.B. yang ganya membaca and comman sense...

Lurus kan???

Napa tia rasa macam time....


Flies rapidly...

Ngalih dah ku mengajar masa ani... inda tah terkajar udah bah.... macam my life time ani pun nada fun lagi...

CAuse I stop going shopping (1 factor is bcuz nada duit hehe) I stop going to movies.... and I stop jalan - jalan ke bandar....

Boring idop ku uhauhahauhauaha....

And plus ++++ My motor rusak!!!1 Cana kan ku jalan - jalan time cuti ani nanti... or find my a job..

Without job = no money = no shopping = :'( uhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhhhuu

Okay lah...

to all the Malaysian readers sorry that you find yourself difficult to read today's punye post cuz I tend to mixed up with bruneian Slang... Entah lah... rase macam rindu kan bahasa brunei...

And to all BRuneian... awu deh... masih pandai ku ni bekurapak bahasa barunai... dont wori fluent lagi ni.... mai tah testing... heheheheh...

Bah bah... muleh tu dulu... tata....

Kenape perlu belajar investment??

Hm... aku sekarang tengah pening belajar subject investment...

Sampai ketahap memikir kan kenape perlunya kita belajar subject investment...

kenape kenape?!?!?!?!?!

Hehehe harap harap en Kamal tak bace ni... nanti mati aku hehe...

bukan nye aku tak suke... tp mcm kekadang tu bile nak buat tak faham kenape n macam amne nak buat....

I think sebab aku tak faham concept dia lagi kot...

Dah lah aku fail test 1... tak tahu lah ape terjadi kat test 2 hari tu... huhuhuuh..

terlambat ker aku kalau aku kate aku baru nak cube paham kan concept dia sedangkan exam final hari jumaat ni??? heheheh.....

Dah lah aku nak g makan dulu... bye bye bye...

Feel good saying it...

The word only has 5 letter words and is so simple but yet its so hard to say it aloud...


We gona feel as if something large stuck in our mouth when try to say it to someone and really mean it...

I'm so relieve that finally I conquer I own mind and have the strength to say it...

It has been one whole semester that I avoid having more than one sentence with him, not because I'm afraid but the feeling of "shock" still overwhelm me... but now finally God give me the Will to confront him...

Its my fault actually...

He did try to get back with me after everything...

But then I'm the one who give him the cold shoulders...

The fact that I finally have a whole night talking with him make me feel good... and at ease....

And that also make me text a sorry sms to the person I'm currently having a fight with.

Hm... live is just like a fairy tale... it only come as we want when we tend to work for it.... not by only saying about it....

Now I'm officially done with the whole inside conflict and focus more on my inner strength... hope it will stay this...

And I will always prey for all my frens.... and if with me.. everyone is my friends...

Otak oh otak...

The only thing that stuck in my mind is when am I going to start study?!?!?!
And when I'm thinking of it I either going to sleep or feel bored of it...

Finally the final examination is around the corner...
My first paper will be Organizational Behavior which fall on 23/4/2010..
Then Investment which will be on 25/4/2010..
Then lastly.. Human Resource Management which is on 4/5/2010...
I know... 3 subject jer...

And that y my expectation for this semester is vert high... tp condition of studying macam tak mengizinkan jer...

I just which I got....

My own study table and chairs.. tak payah lah n g library of hang kat bilik junior all the time... hm.....

Its a hard decision for me to let go... heheheheh... so brain... do ur job......

Kawan...?

Friends are like diamonds to me... I never want to hurt them... I always try my best to support them... I will never ever want to lose a single friend... but sometimes I have to be strong and let them go...

When I still have a temper or use high tone towards anyone or scolded anyone.. this means that I still care for that person... but then when suddenly I just ignore everything as if that person is not exist then... this mean that I'm MAD ... and it is not easy to see me mad at someone...

Lately I just lost a friendship... A friendship bonds that being tied for almost more than 2 years. I tried to hold it... to save it but I just couldn't take it anymore... It hurts me so badly...

I understand the situation and the problem that he or she is having that's why don't want to pressure more.... but if things is getting worse... effected me... my reputation.. and a lot of lies... then... who should I blame??? me?? still me????? come on... it happen to me.. not no one influence me... but I think.. its because he or she already found new friends... friends that are fun to hang out with... Jalan2 and all...

So now I just have to break it...

Now I think I realize something...

Things that make me had to pull myself away from others...

I think people treat me like a sampah...

Sampah before dibuang ianya diperlukan dan digunakan...

After that dibuang begitu saje...

and I'm like that...

When needed people search for me... ask me to do this and that....

when things finished they just ignored me...

My Friends always "merugut" if sekiranya dorang kena makan sorang2... but don't they realise that I always dine Alone without complaints.???!?!?!

Its okay... I don't asked for sympathy... because I already used to it...

Maybe I was born to please people... thats why... 3 days away from people release all the tension I have had for this semester...

Now I already accept everything...

I'm strong this way...

Group Drama cct ku semua committed...

I'm so proud to be in the same group with you guys...

Do I need to list down all of you punye name??? I think tak payah kot...
Sebab if I listed all the name kang... tahu lah kite sape yang tak committed...

Seriously saying even the worst among the worst pun... yang asyik dating, or berak or mandi lambat pun still dtg... walaupun lambat still ade rase tanggung jawab.... tapi yang ni... hm...

I don't wana say anything more... but overall I'm proud of you guys...

You are the best ...

Aku tak menyesal satu group ngan korang....