Feel good saying it...

The word only has 5 letter words and is so simple but yet its so hard to say it aloud...


We gona feel as if something large stuck in our mouth when try to say it to someone and really mean it...

I'm so relieve that finally I conquer I own mind and have the strength to say it...

It has been one whole semester that I avoid having more than one sentence with him, not because I'm afraid but the feeling of "shock" still overwhelm me... but now finally God give me the Will to confront him...

Its my fault actually...

He did try to get back with me after everything...

But then I'm the one who give him the cold shoulders...

The fact that I finally have a whole night talking with him make me feel good... and at ease....

And that also make me text a sorry sms to the person I'm currently having a fight with.

Hm... live is just like a fairy tale... it only come as we want when we tend to work for it.... not by only saying about it....

Now I'm officially done with the whole inside conflict and focus more on my inner strength... hope it will stay this...

And I will always prey for all my frens.... and if with me.. everyone is my friends...

Otak oh otak...

The only thing that stuck in my mind is when am I going to start study?!?!?!
And when I'm thinking of it I either going to sleep or feel bored of it...

Finally the final examination is around the corner...
My first paper will be Organizational Behavior which fall on 23/4/2010..
Then Investment which will be on 25/4/2010..
Then lastly.. Human Resource Management which is on 4/5/2010...
I know... 3 subject jer...

And that y my expectation for this semester is vert high... tp condition of studying macam tak mengizinkan jer...

I just which I got....

My own study table and chairs.. tak payah lah n g library of hang kat bilik junior all the time... hm.....

Its a hard decision for me to let go... heheheheh... so brain... do ur job......

Kawan...?

Friends are like diamonds to me... I never want to hurt them... I always try my best to support them... I will never ever want to lose a single friend... but sometimes I have to be strong and let them go...

When I still have a temper or use high tone towards anyone or scolded anyone.. this means that I still care for that person... but then when suddenly I just ignore everything as if that person is not exist then... this mean that I'm MAD ... and it is not easy to see me mad at someone...

Lately I just lost a friendship... A friendship bonds that being tied for almost more than 2 years. I tried to hold it... to save it but I just couldn't take it anymore... It hurts me so badly...

I understand the situation and the problem that he or she is having that's why don't want to pressure more.... but if things is getting worse... effected me... my reputation.. and a lot of lies... then... who should I blame??? me?? still me????? come on... it happen to me.. not no one influence me... but I think.. its because he or she already found new friends... friends that are fun to hang out with... Jalan2 and all...

So now I just have to break it...

Now I think I realize something...

Things that make me had to pull myself away from others...

I think people treat me like a sampah...

Sampah before dibuang ianya diperlukan dan digunakan...

After that dibuang begitu saje...

and I'm like that...

When needed people search for me... ask me to do this and that....

when things finished they just ignored me...

My Friends always "merugut" if sekiranya dorang kena makan sorang2... but don't they realise that I always dine Alone without complaints.???!?!?!

Its okay... I don't asked for sympathy... because I already used to it...

Maybe I was born to please people... thats why... 3 days away from people release all the tension I have had for this semester...

Now I already accept everything...

I'm strong this way...