Raya raya raya.......

Photos will be post up let on when I feel like it...

Hm... so...

Today is officially the 4th of Raya... I still can't enjoy raya as I still didn't enjoy raya as I used to...

My mind is somewhere else...

I got lot of reading to do...

Starting from Monday next week.. I got quizzes and tests .. for the whole 2 weeks... EVERYDAY.

Then after 2 weeks is my final exam...

Like??!?!?!?!!!?!? MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven't prepared a thing!!!!!!!!!

none....

This semester I thought I could relax a bit but then..

This semester sucked up my brain ability...

Cause all the subject need my "remember" and "focus" strength....


Like for example LAW... Malaysian Economic... IT... Public Relations... and Arabic...

Especially Arabic.. I'm totally screwed...

Argh!!!!!!!!

Help me...

When can I start do my study...

Where is tuition teacher when I need one...

Today my family plans to go to "air hitam" then Perak.. to raya at my mom's punya sister...

I thought of not following... but since I'm the last son.. "yang bongsu kata kan" I must go....

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Guess the only thing to do.. read along the journey... hm.....

I'll try my best lah....

p/s Selamat Hari Raya to all and for UiTM buddy ingat ingat lah... yang kita banyak exam lepas raya ni huahauhauhauahhauahhahahahahah

HPPY BIRTHDAY YANA!!!!!!!!

SELAMAT HARI ULANG TAHUN!!!!
UMUR SEMAKIN MENINGKAT...
SO SEMANGAT PUN TIDAK BOLEH GENTAR!!!!

MUDAH MUDAHAN YANA DAPAT APA YANG YANA DOA KAN...
AMIN!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally the I got the answer... thank you...

" i moved on, i am happy with who i am with now. i am finally clear with what i want, i know who i want. and i don't want to live in the past" I re-quote what Her boyfriend quote from her...

I guess... shes right... I should moved on too...

But I think I have... moving on...

Just that... I hate losings...

Losing as precious as a friendship and relationship...

I did being hit with a similar statement by my brother...

Asking me to forget everything...

The past... the family-angkat I have, the experiences and friends...

But I said NO WAY!!!

Maybe I don't believe in long-distance relationship either love, family ties and friendship...

But still I secretly without telling anyone... cherish the bonds... keep it and store it.. hoping it will last...

And surprisingly.. it does last... still now..

I still in contact with my Brunei family - angkat.. my bestfriends...

Well yes not like old times but still they are in my mind...

This is just me...

When I open up my heart fully to some one I get emotionally attach...

They will never be forgotten... Even though it hurts badly to think of it...


I respect her decision... moved on...

Finally I have a reason to close this door, locked forever and throw the key so that I could never look back... and never talk about it...

Maybe by now... I could open up new doors... completely different ...

Takes time...

But hey... need to focus on my studies and career first then... this stuff...

Besides... I got friends to fill my time...

I let Allah to decide everything

kalau ade, ade lah.. kalau tak ade.. so what... Allah sentiasa membahagia kan umat nya in one way or another.. segala nya ada hikmah nya...