Friday, April 23, 2010

Emo tetiba...

Actually I tengah do my revision ni Investment smbil dengar my mp3 then tetiba je lagu Kelly Clarkson berkumandang....

And the funny thing is that every time I heard that song ... it makes me shed tears... I don't know y... is it because at times i feel lonely and lost?!?!

Well I always lose people that I love ...

I made the wrong choice thinking that miracle will happen, I broke-up with the girl i love most, hoping that by then she would wait for me until I achieve everything... but now... now... end up she with some one else.... and us lost contact... hmm....

and then I my friends...

When I found the true batch of friends.. faith spread us apart .... I had to leave the country FOREVER...

N now... when I thought I had found the one true friend for life.. she is gone....

my social life in Malaysia is sux... I keep losing friends.... firstly the best room buddy (P...) then the groupies(F.... & D...) then the laugh-able duo (K...... & L.....) then the bro (i...) and now, the bff(E...).

Banyak kan the list ... i know... its me yg ada problem... so... tak ape lah...



now lets look at the lyrics and buried it in ur head:
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

3 comments:

Cinta Madu said...

alah, abg dzan. sedihnya. it's okay. maybe one day your really best friends will come. or maybe dia ada dgn abg skang, uma abg je yg x perasan kan. :)

D'zaN said...

Actually I do have...

Not 1...

But 6 bestfriends... I mean 6 among the best....
Yang lain tu pun rapat giler gak tp yang I rapat sngt2 smpai I know the family the best 6 ni...

Cume semua, the thing is... dorang kat Brunei... ang abg kat sini.... huhuhh sedih sedih sedih.....

N here mcam tak accept ppl like me.... hmm... its okay at least abg boleh adapt rite???

Cinta Madu said...

ouh, xpe nnt dah kerja abg dzan boleh pindah brunei blk :)

true, walau kt mana pun kita stay, adaptation is still number one among all those important things. :)