Monday, March 22, 2010

Bila sudah serabut...

I just read one of my friends blog and it makes me realise something...
She wrote and I quote “sesiapa yg tidak merasa tenteram dengan Allah, tidak akan merasa tenteram dengan yg orang sekelilingnya”

Since yesterday and of cause today, I don't feel comfortable with the people around me.
I feel like people are trying to take advantage of me...
Thinking that I'm "PoPuLAr" therefore they force themselves to be close to me,
without once even think that I have a feeling...

Again & again I said to them I'm not "POPULAR" and its true I'm not...
Just that I tend to know stuff even I don't need the info.


I guess with the assignment, Drama (which consist of 50%marks), unconditional friends attitude & Final Exam yang semakin near...
My head + my mind dah serabut...

Serabut ... Serabut... serabut...

That is why starting yesterday I just shut myself...

Just ME, Myself & I

Just can take it anymore with other people's mind... Its complicated...

Nak bercerita masalah ngan orang lain pun takot orang tu salah faham...
Bila dengar masalah orang pulak aku yang pening...
SO?!?!

Hm....

Thats y I've decided...

I have to make a temporary changes...

it may takes days, weeks or even months for me to change back...

But if my guess is right and if I do have a TRUE & LOYALTY friends...(which I in doubt) they will stick by me...
whatever my temper & condition is...

Books + laptop will be my companion... My room + Library where I will be...

I know I'm becoming a nerd..so what... that is me temporarily....

*dzan is depressing*


2 comments:

princesz mia said...

salam..tue kata2 ustaz aku dulu la...alhamdullillah la..maksudnya bila hati x tenteram,kita mendekatkan diri kepada Allah..sebab Allah berfirman..

"ketahuilah hanya dengan mangingati Allah hati akan menjadi tenang.." (13:28)

-aku yg alpa&lupa

Cinta Madu said...

yo yo bro, whats up! miss you lahh! *aceceh~ teehee.. abg dzan, whats wrong? ade problem ehh? xpe xpe, i know you're tough enough to handle all those thing, kan? be cool ya. libraries kan romantic places, mana tau blh jumpa jodoh kt situ? bahahaa