This is My Life This is My WorLD

PAgi!!!!

2011-12-22T10:31:00.001+08:00

Selamat pagi semua.. tetibe buka pc.. nampak ini ... wow sesuai dengan mood aku pagi ni hahahaha

STRESS!

Yeay tak lama lagi nak raye yeay!!!!!

2011-08-18T10:38:00.002+08:00

Okay a little bit of an update about me...
1st dah resign from work...
2nd fasting still belom ade ponteng..

and now? helping out kak izam punye bazaar ramadhan..I'm actually do the cooking okay.. sometimes.. hehehe..

And now i just realised that its 2 weeks left before raye... and less den a month before I go back Malacca :)

So my mood to study dah membuak buak.. hopefully it stays like this till the end of my study lah huhu cause I really need to push my self..

again tak sabar nye nak raye !!!!!! heheheheh

My weekends..

2011-07-25T08:31:00.002+08:00

Hm.. my weekends are tight up with stuff that I didn't really plan.. But as usual I go with the flow where my feet lead me...

Last Saturday... I woke up late that made me rushing to go to the office.. but surprisingly I arrived too early like an hour early :P therefore I just walk around the C.S. As I walk I saw group of nurses sitting around.. there opened up a blood donation booth. So I donate lah my blood yang suci nie...

Then balik keje aku terus balik rumah.. online until I slept.

Yesterday... I woke up early, have my breakfast wait for mia ounye call cause she said nak ajak keluar...
Then I got her call saying she passed the exam and all.. "Congratez MIA!!!!"

Before pergi with mia, My mom minta teman dia pergi kedai pakai kereta abg boy.. so I did... balik jer dari kedai.. I was so shocked ade orang datang rumah huu.. my sister in law punye family datang visit.. so I helpe my mom potong sayur then off I go..

Jalan jalan ngan mia kat angsana.. dia belanje makan kat Pizza Hut.. pastu balik...
Balik jer... dapat call dari kak Izam saying kedai bukak hari ni.. so aku bersiap and all.. pergi kerja hahaha,,,,
Then like maghrib macam tu I realize aku ade call.. rupanye my brother was asking about his car key.. (opsss..) aku terbawa... aku ape lagi.. dengan panic bawa motor macam setan...

Tapi tibe kat tampoi tu.. I dont message dari dia.. tak yah balik dia dah gi kerja pinjam abg ajib punye kete... huhu tapi the message really sarcastic lah.. huhuh.. so aku balik semula ke kedai kak izam...

Balik rumah.. aku teros tidur :P

KEep on calling dzan...

2011-07-21T23:11:00.002+08:00

Today Wat I did"?
Basicly nothing... same je... making calls.. kedai kak izam pun belum kene panggil so tak keje kat situ pegi teman mia makan jer...

Hm..
Today is exactly 2 months aku kerja kat Venture Media...
And I feel really attach to it..
Because I got Friends and colleague yang best.. one them is Diana lah.. PRoject manager...
Tapi when I think again.. aku tinggal one month je keje kat sini.. Macam sedih pulak..

Yes it is stressful... cause no sales.. I'm not a Good salesman material... But i try...

Exactly a month lagi aku akan resign.. huhuh.. sedih nye.. but seriously this experience I will never forget.. and VMC will be part of my memories...

Let me resign please..

2011-07-19T22:49:00.003+08:00

Today i made my decision to resign from my work.. within this week... after argue with my mom... and all... convincing her to let me resign... hehhe
Then lepas solat asar.. i decide not to resign just yet hehehehe... tetibe.. rase sayang plak.. huhu... so we will seee how it goes lah huhuhh

PAtot tak berhenti awal.?!?!?

2011-07-18T21:52:00.002+08:00

Seriously... I'm getting bored with the work.. don't know why...
Its not because of the company, the company is fine.. not because of the managers.. the managers are awesome.. not because of the management.. the management is great... colleague? tak juge.. they all fantastic..
Maybe because.. I really can't do sale kot.. I don't really get sales this month, unlike last month.. huhuh... Bored bored bored..

I want to quit but I already promise to the Manager I'm not gonna quit until 22nd August.. where it is the date I will resign before naek sem... hm...
Kalau berhenti pun.. sayang weii... satu.. no gaji.. second.. no good portfolio huhuhhu... so??

I will Do my very best okay?

ohh btw today nothing much happen.. just work work work.. and teman kan marmia dinner.. thats all.. huhuhuh :P

Menge'date'

2011-07-17T22:23:00.003+08:00

Today, I woke up really EARLY cause I'm so excited to watch Harry Potter part 2 finale...
Around 7 or 8 my mom asked me to help her with the garden thingy.. So my dad and I pun pergi lah dengan gigih nyer mengangkat pasu and all hehehe..

Then around 9, I start my journey to Jusco Tebrau.. but then you know what ? Aku salah pergi Jusco aku tepergi Jusco permas jaya instead... I was like GOD!~!!!! My watch showed 10.20am already and the shows start at 10.30am.. aku ape lagi pecot moto lelaju lah hahahah

I arrived around 10.35am like that... in my mind, sure sure mikah marah nie.. huhuh.. sampai je lepas parked motor tengok handphone.. then got message for mikah saying "just wait infront of tgv"
Aku dah tergelak gelak dah membaca.. cause I thought I'm the one yang late.. rupe nye mamat ni lagi lambat hahahaha

Sampai jer TGV duduk duduk jap kat bench nearby FB-ing :P then pergi beli popcorn n drinks..
kuar dari counter I saw Mikah berlari dengan gigih dengan bag merah dia tu hahahaha.... *relax sudeh...

Pastu teros masok wayng around 10.50am kot.. then dengan tekon nyer kitorang focuz tengok heheheh

lepas wayang around 1pm kot ape lagi gossip time... duduk sampai 1 hour kat food court tapi tak makan ape ape pun... pastu sambung kat warong near bomba larkin until 5.30pm hahahaha
Banyak kan topic kitorang.. boleh buat thesis hahahahah...

After that Gi jumpe mia pule.. lepak ngan dia.. until kul 8++
it was fun talking wif her heeheh :P

balik rumah,... dont know what to do.. abis kat credit dengan talipon with my fren ... cerite2 sampai abis credit... sorry lah disturb u nak makan ... hahah

I enjoy giler today... kalau lah hari hari ku mcm ni kn best huhuhuhuhuh

Salah kah aku?

2011-07-16T18:34:00.002+08:00

Salah kah aku jika mengalah walau aku tak bersalah?
Salah kah aku.. mengundurkan diri walaupun diri berani mati...
Salah kah?

Entah ... aku rase semuanya hanyalah dugaan ...

Yang pasti aku tidak mahu melukai mana mana pihak...

Biar lah aku pergi.. biarlah aku di persalahkan...

Kerana sekarang baru aku tahu... yang mana kawan dan yang mana lawan...

Double the fun!!! :P

2011-05-18T16:06:00.001+08:00

Wow.. My Birthday this year is the best so far..not that I celebrate it always but usually my mom would just bought a cake (i don't eat though) and my family would sing birthday song to me in the middle of the night then I would go back to sleep.. But this time is different ..
On my birthday we went to my elder brother's house to send his car back.. then suddenly he decide to belanja-ing me @ pizza hut ..hehehe :P like nice...
Then the best part was...
the very next day was my convocation day for my diploma!!!! wAH!!!!!!
After celebrated my bday.. abg ajib wif his family, my mom and me went straight to K.L. and stay a night in shah alam to be ready for the big day hehehe...
To see pictures of my convocation day just click on the link above... :)

Melaka...

2011-02-15T09:50:00.005+08:00

Where should I start?... hm...
its been 2months and 20 days since I left Brunei...
Its been 2 months plus plus I've been staying in Melaka...
At first I thought of not being active in anything... but then..
I am what I am...
I could go crazy without doing anything...
So here I am in UiTM Kampus Bandaraya Melaka or the famous name for it is "KBM"

Now the question is...

What course I'm takin?
Where do I stay?
How do you go to KBM?
Who is your friend there?
When will you be finishing.?
Which do you prefer JB or Melaka...or Brunei?!?!?!

First thing.. first...

I'm Taking BBA(Hons) International Business and since I'm from diploma UiTM in the same fakulti, therefore I skip a year so now, I'm in semester 3.

And automatically I'm under IBUC

During their AGM, there is an opening to become an EXCO but have to under go an interview.
So, I just simply apply for it. Not expecting anything out of it.
The day after the interview, I received a message saying that I've been successfully being selected as one of the EXCO.
So my position in there is Exco Akademik, Protokol dan Alumni
Hebat tak??!?! hahahahaha...

Okay move on to the next question...

I currently stay in kolej Tun Mamat...

The kolej is like an apartment.. a house which consist of 3 rooms.. 2 rooms shared by 2 person and the other one share by 4 people..

So far my roommates and my housemate semua okay... there are not selfish.. and respect others plus they are clean!!! that's the most important thing!

The kolej and KBM is really near.. just 5 minits walk...
this lead to the next question..
YES!! i walk to KBM... I walk almost everywhere here in melaka... cause no transport..
Here in Malacca Taxi/ Cab service really sux! they charge more then it should be.. they don't have any meter charge...

okay next?

Well... friends? I got a lot.
My housemate... Especially Hafiz and Acapan.
My classmate... Again especially acapan.
My part 3,IB mate...
My IBUC mate..
My Debate mate.. (yes i join the classes but really sux at it)
and my juniors... "yunyun" and ella!!!

NEXT!!

finish? hopefully by next year...
Mid of next year I'm not be here in Malacca anymore cause I'll be undergo a practical. so basically I'm here for 1.5 years only and off I go for practical then habis...

LAST!!!!!

JB and Melaka?!?!
compare?

Of cause I choose JB... cause JB is where I stand from the first place..

but compared to Brunei .. ?!?!?! I love Brunei so damn Much that I won't let it go....

again.. malacca is not a bad place to stay... I could leave here.. Its... okay...

yeayy!!!!! abis... ehehehe...

Rajin kan aku memblog? dah lama dah tak sentuh... :)

Okay lah bye bye you all... Ive aku rajin and the mood is rite then i blog lagi k..

Today..

2011-01-22T13:22:00.002+08:00

Randomly... I just feel like blogging again, but instead of lengthy pages of posts..
I waste my time changing the layout...
hm...
I'm not in the mood today.. don't know why... huhuh

Brunei Here I come...

2010-12-03T01:26:00.002+08:00

Oh my goodness...
I can't believe that I'm few hours away to Brunei!!!
Brunei is like my home land...
Its been 3 years send I step foot there...
And I soooooo nervous...
Really really nervous...
Mesti banyak yang dah berubah....
unlike in JB.. in Brunei I used to know all the ways the short cuts.. where to and all... I'm like the GPS there..
But now I think... I'm just a tourist...

I'm excited.. but I'm afraid that people treat me like a stranger... I know its going to be different..

My friends going to be different..

I, myself will be different...

Going back to Brunei is like going to my past...

All the happiness and all the sadness.. is there...

Its so emotional and make me goes sentimental with it....

Will they still love me like they did?

Will they hate me like they did??

I'm scared...
But I'm excited...
I'm nervous..
But I'm interested to explore...

Brunei oh brunei...

You know that I love you...

Even though Johor is my homeland...

But I spend half of my entire life in you...

So is it wrong for me to love you more then I love my home land?

Is my fault that I always talk about you since I only know about you???

Whatever its.. in just few hours left.. I will be breathing the air there.... the equatorial rain-forest climate...

Listen to people talking with the word "BAh" on every end of sentences...

And eat food that as cheap as B$1 which call nasi katok (plain rice + fried chicken + sambal)

and eating bruneian fast food called "Ayamku"

The local food called "Ambuyat" that I really really missed a lot!!!

Oh Brunei... please treat me well.. please be kind to me.. cause I've been longing to there... and visit you..

LOve...

2010-12-01T20:29:00.002+08:00

Love is a pure thing...
Love can be seen in so many angle...
Love between a son with his parents...
Between friends ans acquaintance...
And love with someone special...
For me...
I can easily fall in love if it involve family and friends...
Cuz they are everything to me and I would die for them...
But ever since I'm back in Malaysia...
I haven't found a girl that could replace her...
Maybe because I'm not looking or maybe I like to compare with her
or maybe I just too choosy...
It's not simple to find THE one..
I'm choosy, bad tempered and I know I'm a bit soft but trust me I'm not a fagot...

When I finally found one..
I just couldn't say it...
For me she is perfect...
But due to my failure in Form 6 I just but that feeling aside...

Day by day I'm getting closer and closer to her...
getting attached to her...
Since she already has a soul mate, I treat her as a friend...

I made her cry, I made her laugh...
I would do anything for her...

But it's time for us to be a part...
I gather all my courage to put everything on the table...
But I can't...
I'm not the type of person that ruin people happiness..
So at the end of our meeting..
I gave her a card...
telling her how i feel toward her...

I don't expect anything in return cause I'm a realistic...
At least she knows how I feel...

What ever happen she is still my friend...
Friend till the end...
I love you...

You are the girl that open up my heart...
Because of you,
I have gain the courage to be love and to find that perfect lady...
Lady that will be by my side.. for the eternity ...

Aku sudah tidak tahan lagi....

2010-10-31T21:34:00.002+08:00

Allah cuma akan menduga umatnya yang mampu menempuh dugaan itu...
Sesusah mane pun tetap akan jalan keluar...

Aku tahu dugaan yang aku hadapi sekarang aku mampu untuk menempuhnya
Tapi kekadang aku rasa tidak tahan...

Mungkin sebab penat secara fizikal and mental dalam menghadapi peperiksaan final ni...

Kenape perlu ade conflict conflict dalaman seperti ini....

Kenape aku rasa sebegini sedang kan kawan2 ku yang laen tidak kisah mengenai ini...

Aku buntu... aku penat melawan perasaan dan pemikiran ini...

Aku cuba jadi positif tapi sangat memenat kan.....

Seperti sekarang ni aku terasa seperti ingin mati... kalau lah dalam islam tiada menyatakan bahwa membunuh diri itu akan terus masok neraka... mungkin sekarang aku sudah pasrah dan membunh diri...

aku keji aku jijik aku hina aku seperti anjing yang cuma pandai menyalak...

aku bodoh aku bangang... tapi aku tidak pernah menipu perasaan ku...

ARRGHHH stress nyer belajar....

ARGHHHH stress memikirkan aku terpaksa meninggalkan tempat ini...

ARGHHH stress nyer aku akan kehilangan dan berpisah dengan semua yang aku sayang!!!!!!

TIDAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tak ape lah... memang ini dah takdir aku... aku cuma boleh pandang hadapan dan maju kedepan.

Dont worry aku tak akan bunuh diri sebab aku masih waras... aku masih lagi berpegang dengan agama... masih lagi memikirkan tentang emak dan abah.. dan keluarga...

cuma.. perasaan ku tidak akan stabil....dn cepat kecil hati sebab buat masa ini aku tidak kuat untuk berselindung kan perasaan ku ini...

TeaRful JoY..

2010-10-19T15:05:00.004+08:00

I had a great time creating memories...
With my classmate and all..

Firstly is the time when Puan Thahira want the part 5 DBS student create a surprise dinner for us part 6 DBS students...

It was okay okay at first... the food was nice...
I'm not well at time cause I batuk batuk so I can't really able to enjoy every moment...

The games they buat was great.. they sing... Imam sing.. Rody and Zaila sing... mirul -bonser punsing gak...

Unfortunately.. they asked me to sing but I cant... I really really cannot sing due to my condition...
I was hoping Pn Thahira's words when she said she want this thing end with happy ending .. came true..cause my emotion is not stable at time...
But it didn't...
My classmate start singing sad friendship and perpisahan songs and everyone was asked to stand and sing together...
They pull me up and I couldn't help it.....
I hide my face in the back row... I hug them all.. I laid my face on their shoulders and shade tears...
I'm out of control....
A man tears is very valuable...
They are very valuable to me....
thank you them that comfort me...
Asking me to relax... and help me to gain myself...

After the dinner I was so exhausted... and so "Kejiwa" that I message everyone... saying that I love them.. even some of the Juniors received it... pokoknya sampai credit aku habis lah...
And aku message to time aku stop kat petronas hehehe... after sending dorang qyra and mya balik kampus...
I thought of not joining them all pergi Tanjung Leman because I'm afraid that I couldn't bear it...

I don't sleep thinking of them... until subuh... then I decide to go with the flow.. what ever nak happen, happen lah.. at least aku tak menyesal nanti...

So the next day I spend 2 days and 1 nite with them at Tanjung Leman creating Wonderful Memories...
We played games.. swimming.. barbequeing... memancing a.k.a. baring kat simen sambil tengok bintang until tertidur.. sesi memangkap ketam kecik... bermaen hujan .... dan sesi luahan hati and menyanyi... and again.. I sing until I cried.. I hung the guys tightly cuz I dont wana let go...

It was fun.. I stored every single thing in my mind... even though I mind is not very good at memorising but I thing goes into my long term memory...

Orang kata susah nak tengok seorang lelaki menangis...
Orang kata orang lelaki susah nak tersentuh...
Aku menangis..
Aku tersentuh...
dan Bukan kah aku lelaki?

Aku tak kesah ape orang kata pasal aku...
Aku tak kesah semuanya...
Aku menangis sebab aku sayang..
Aku tersentuh sebab aku cinta..
Cinta tak semestinya perlu kepada orang yang kita hendak kahwin..
Orang yang disayang tidak semestinya perlu kekasih...

Mereka lah yang aku cinta...
Mereka lah yang aku sayang...
kerana mereka ku kenal erti hidupan...
Kerana mereka aku jadi aku...

Aku sayang kamu semua.. DBS UiTM JB intake Dec2008 - Dec2010...

I just realised I do get jealous

2010-10-15T09:34:00.002+08:00

I thought I would never get jealous...
I thought I know how to handle this feeling..
I thought I know how to convert it to something that I believe can help me...
But it seems like...
I do get jealous...

Its not an envy...

It is a jealousy..

If you ask me why am I being jealous..
well I also don't how to answer that question..
Because I don't know...
I have no I idea why...

If you ask me what do I want you to do..
The answer also I don't know...

Its just what I felt at that time...
Or maybe due to the little time I have left to spent...

Don't worry this feeling will be gone eventually...

And don't worry, you are not mine to keep...

I'm just a person that want you to be a part of my life...

And I guess that is not going to be possible... huh??

Its okay...
I'm happy at least I can spend my little time with you...
And knowing that you are something to me...

That is enough for me... thank you...

Couldn't handle

2010-10-12T06:02:00.001+08:00

I'm crying inside... I'm pretending to laugh with tears of joy..
I'm afraid... Afraid to leave... Afraid to leave u... All the people that i love...
I want to share this few days with u... But dat is impossible... U have ur own commitment and i have mine...
I want to take pictures of u just for a save keeping but i dont think i have da time...
And beside...
If i hang around with u for a long time.. u guys will get bored..
And besides, it is much harder for me to let go later on...
Im hard like stone.., but i can be frangile as glass... And right now da glass is on the tip of a bull's horn..
Ya Allah... Aku berdoa padamu ya Allah... Ampunkan dosaku... Ampunkan lah dosa adekku,temanku dan kawan kawan... Ya Allah kuatkan lah semangatku untuk mengharungi dugaan ini... Kuatkan lah hati ku bila melihat wajah wajah mereka yang aku kasihi pada masa yang singkat ini... Tambahkan lah diriku bila saatnya untuk aku pergi...
Jangan biar mereka melihat kelemahan ku.. Jangan biar aku menitiskan air mata di depan mereka... Cukuplah diri ini saja yang tahu bertapa banyak air mata ini telah mengalir apabila melihat wajah wajah yang akan di tinggalkan....

Aku tak tahu samaada aku berjaya atau tidak untuk kuatkan diriku, tapi aku akan cuba untuk menghindari diri dari kamu semua... Supaya senang untukku melepaskan... Kamu....

Mungkin aku tidak pernah mengatakan ini... Atau kamu tidak percaya aku ade perasan seperti ini...
Tapi aku mahu kamu tahu yang aku mencintai kamu... Aku menyayangi mu...
Tidak kesah kamu bestfriend ku, adek ku,kawan ku atau da girl dat admired... Lelaki atau perempuan... I love u... 3 simple words but for me its a very huge thing...
Maafkan aku jika aku tidak berani meluahkannya kepada kamu kerna keadaan akan lebih sukar bila perkataan ini telah disebutkan...

Oleh itu aku akan mengundurkan diri secara senyap... Dan tidak menyusahkan sape sape...

Bodoh kah aku?

2010-10-08T13:01:00.005+08:00

Bodoh kah aku selalu fikirkan yang laen?
Bodoh kah aku terlalu ambil berat?
Bodoh kah aku hingga membuat orang laen bosan ngan aku?
Bodoh kah aku sampai aku dihindari?
Bodoh kah aku bila aku dibenci?
Bodoh kah aku sekiranya aku dilayan seperti aq tiada di situ?
Bodoh kah aku jika dipulaukan?
Bodoh kah aku kalau aku dilupakan?
Bodoh sangat kah aku ini sehingga tidak dapat melihat semuanya?
Sanggup aku membodohkan diriku.. Konon nya percaya aku ini di sukai ramai...
Ternyata... Aku silap... ternyata aku bodoh teramat bodoh... Aku telah membutakan mata aku untuk melihat... Melihat realiti kehidupan...
Bodoh nya aku...

Memories flashing back...

2010-10-07T18:33:00.002+08:00

Baru ni tengah ku berjalan menuju bilik ku, aku terlihat sekumpulan pelajar... Junior ku bermain bola..
Tetiba jer aku teringat time aku part 1 dan part 2 dulu...
Seingat aku, walaupun jarang aku dapat menendang bola tu... tapi aku akan tetap turun padang untuk meramai kan ... kalau tak pun aku akan duduk tepi tepi melihat rakan2 ku bermain bola...

Tapi dulu mane ade goal post... jalan tar dia pun masih lagi rosak...
Dan dulu pun semua nya masih duduk dalam kampus.. sama - sama dengan Senior...

Hm.... rindu plak kat hari hari yang telah berlalu tu...

hm... tak ape lah.. iyanya tak akan berulang tetapi aku akan simpan memori memori itu di satu sudut minda yang tak berapa nak penuh ini... hm,...

k lah... nak layan minda ku yang seperti wayang ni..

*Flashback*

20 days left

2010-10-07T15:26:00.001+08:00

Kalau di fikirkan betol jugak kata dorang..
Bestnyer nak grad tak lama lagi... Seronok tak sabar nak masuk degree...
Bohong lah kalau aku tak fikir macam tu...
Tapi...
Part of me... Ade terase sedih..
Dan sukar untuk menerima yang aq akan tinggal kan UiTM JB n berpisah ngan kawan2 dan adek2 ku...

Aq tak tau orang laen punye perasaan, tetapi I personally feel that way...

Aq gelisah menghadapi waktu... Aq gelisah melihat masa... Yang bergerak pantas...

Aq mau berusaha dgn gigih untuk final dlm pada masa yg sama aku mahu luangkan masa yang singkat ini dgn adek ku dan juga kawan2ku...

Aq mula kacau mereka.. Buat mereka geram kat aq buat mereka bengang kat aq... Kerana aq takut ... Takut tidak sempat untuk melakukan itu semua... Takut tidak sempat merasakan kasih sayang mereka...

6 semester telah ku harungi... Baru sekarang aq merasakan perasaan ini,... Dan besar kemungkinan Aku tak mampu memikul segalanya...

Aq cuba berlawak, ketawa... Tapi air muka ku ketara bersedih... Tetapi sekuat hati ku aku cube menahan dan pendamkan...

Tapi jangan lah ada yang cuba mengujiku... Kerna pasti air mata ini akan mengalir...
Mengalir tanpa henti...

Aku tak tau bagaimana hendak menunjukan kasih dan sayang ku terhadap kamu semua...

Yang penting kamu akan tetap di hatiku selamanya....

Emotional

2010-10-05T10:30:00.002+08:00

Sebaknye hati ini... Bile di fikirkan...
Banyak yg telah ku lalui... Pahit dan manis..
Suke dan duka.. Tawa dan tangis...
Segala2nya di sini...
Lembaran hidop ku yang baru juga bermula disini...
Tidak sangka ingin masuk 3 tahun ... 6 semester aq berada disini...
Semua pertemuan dan permulaan akan ada perpisahan dan pengakhiranya...
Persoalannyer sekarang... Mampukah aq menghadapi satu lagi perpisahan?

Aku mula terfikir benda2 pelik lg gile... Aku takot kehilangan segalanya dan terpaksa memulakannya lagi... Aku penat... Penat kehilangan kawan... Penat kehilangan orang orang ku sayangi...

Berat atau tidak, cepat atau lambat... Keadaan akan berubah,... Walaupun aq fail kan segala paper ku Atau repeat skali pun, semua tak akan sama... Sbb smua nya telah pegi...

Apa yang aq patot buat cuma tabah,.. Dan berdoa.. Dan mula membuat satu memori yg indah..

Bermula minggu ni hingga abes final exam.. Jangan pelik jika aq bukan seperti aq... Aq mula menjadi seorang yang tenang dan ramah... Aq memjadi jejake yang jiwang riang... Dan jiwa jiwa... Kerna... Aq takot aq akan mengalirkan air mata jika aq tidak bisa menahan sebak didada...

Maafkan aq semua... Maafkan kesilapan ku... Aq tau aq banyak berdosa... Aku suke menengkeng.. Aku suke berletir... Dan... Aku suke marah marah...

Ini semua kerna aq sayang kamu...
Dan skrng aq tak pasti macam mana ingin meninggalkan semua ini...

Maaf jika aku emo... Maaf...

Selamat Pengantin Baru

2010-10-05T10:08:00.000+08:00

Minggu lepas memang hectic ah bagi aku..
Sebab presentation ent tu yg buat aq pening and kusut... Huhuh it was s**k hmm,,
nasib baik aq gi tlong berewang kt rumah kakak qyra.. Hilang sikit sakit otak ni... Hm... Best seh family dayah.. Seronok... I have fun... Huhuhu

Convoy raya...

2010-09-26T01:04:00.003+08:00

This was really something..

I always thought that I'm being left out of the group...

I thought I don't belong there...

And I really thought that because we are different individually then we can't be unite as together

But my guess was wrong...

We are united... yes there are some argument and disagreement here and there

But what ever it is We still call each other "Friends"

And today we create a memories...

Memories that we will bring with us upon stepping off the gate of saying good bye...

Thank you.... Thank you... thank you... thats the only thing that I can say...

I'm proud to call each of you my friends, friends til the end...

and I love you all...

Wah cepat nyer...

2010-09-18T18:42:00.000+08:00

Pejam celik pejam celik dah mase nyer untuk start class... And kena balik kampus...
Not that im asking for more cuti its just that my assignment semua blom siap huhuhu
cume dah video selling jer huhuh sebab itu jer yg fun.. Assignment laen buat aq pening huhuhu

Just got new hair cut...

2010-09-08T23:06:00.005+08:00

Just now before berbuka I went to cut my hair, after being complaint by my family...
YOu know how typical family members nag right?
My ear like its gona bleed tahu tak...

I don't mean to let long n curl.. its just that I'm lazy...

hehehe so yeah tadi pergi gunting..
no change of style.. mcm biase jugak.. short and smart.. hehehe..

Hari ini aku gembira...

2010-09-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

Sudah setahun segalanya berlalu...
Sudah setengah tahun aku tidak bertegur denganya...
Adakah semuanya salah ku atau salah dia?
Memang aku dengan dia sudah tidak ada persengketaan sejak setengah tahun lepas..
Tetapi kenape setiap kali aku melihat dia..
aku rase sakit.. aku rase pedih...
Tetapi setiap kali orang mengutuknya jugak..
aku rasa marah... dan benci..

Sejak kebelakangan ini.. dia menegurku..
seperti tiada benda yang terjadi..
seperti dulu kala...
aku terperanjat tetapi aku cuba buat seperti biase..

Lama kelamaan aku dah terbiasa dengan perangainya...
yang seperti dulu itu..
gurauan nya.. yang sangat menghiburku tat kala ku sedih rungsing...

Baru hari ini hati ku terdetik untuk menelefon dia..
Untuk memulakan teguran dengan dia..
dan mengucapkan salam aidilfitri...
Dalam telefon sukar untuk ku mengungkapkan hasrat di hati...
lidah ku tetiba kulu untuk berkata-kata...

Oleh itu ku hantarkan "message" kepadanya...
Yang terungkap segalanya...
Dengan menghantarkan "message" tersebut tidak ku sesekali mengharapkan balasan..
kerana aku tahu dia.. sukar untuk membalas sesiapa pun...

Dengan tenang ku menuju ke bilik mandi...
dan membersihkan diri sebelum berbuka puase..
Selepas sahaje aku mandi..
Aku terlihat Handphone ku berlampu..
menandakan incoming text message..

Aku membukanya dan membaca..
Rupanya dari dia...
Dia telah memaafkan aku...
Hatiku seperti ingin peletop membaca nya....

ikatan persaudaraan yang telah terputus dan terbuang selama setahun...
telah terjalin semula...
walaupun talinya halus... tidak mengapa..
kerana secara perlahan akan ku jaga...

Dia telah memberikan aku harapan...
yang mana aku bukan lah seorang yang tidak berguna...

Dia telah menunjuk kan ku...
walaupun aku sentiasa kehilangan kawan,
tidak bermakna aku akan kehilangan mereka selama nya...

Terima Kasih kerana buat ku gembira...

ps, Semester ini.. adalah semester yang men-stress kan aku.. tetapi.. aku harap semester ini akan menjadi semester yang bermakna bagi ku... ianya adlah semester last.. dan aku mahu mengumpulkan semua memori memori indah bersama universiti ini dan teman teman ku.. aku akan cuba untuk bersama kamu semua...

Tidor , Movie Tidor buat keje tiodr balik...

2010-08-14T20:41:00.002+08:00

Perggh .. memang ah today...

bangun kul 9 ker 10am tak berapa pasti huhu... then bukak laptop.. tengok cite "samurai high school" sampai episode 3.. which mean 3 hours spend there..
which mean also macam kul 12 or 1pm baru pergi mandi heheh :P

Lepas mandi solat zohor, kemas bilik. Tak lah rajin sampai nak kemas bilik yang sangat "kecik"..
Kemas katil and locker jer sudeh...
Then buat homework Research Methodology.. siap print lagi.. rajin kan? heheh
PAstu sambung baring baring.. sampai my friend mia panggil ajak teman gi rumah kawan..
dah gi hantar dia sampai depan rumah orang tu.. aku pun gi lah kedai kak izam.. tolong dia sikit..

menu dia hari ni.. nasi lemak berlauk.. perghhhhh sedap seh.. huhuhuhh

And now dah rase ngantok huhuhuhhu.. tak ape lah esok bukan ade class pun.. esok lah cari journal... ni nak baring baring.. sambil sambung tengok cite "samurai high School"

high blood pressure ke darah tinggi??

2010-08-13T16:35:00.001+08:00

isshhhh kepale aq ni asyik pening jer... tak tau kenape... alhamdulilah time pose ni aq boleh tahan dari muntah if not mesti aq muntah muntah... dats y aq tk berani dah makan banyak banyak lagi... sebab sakit weiii if kena vomit... ishh tidakkk

JAlan2 ngan ben and "cinta burung"

2010-07-25T09:48:00.002+08:00

Firstly kitorang like excited giler ni nak tengok wayang... cerita "Inception" tapi full then ade orang tu (yes ben its you) suggest cerita "Mantra" so like okay.. dari the gambar wow... thrilling.. when kitorang actually tengok cerita nya dah lah kelakar... ape ape jer mantra dia.. boring plak tu... hm... tak ape lah..

Then we all go jalan jalan around CS...
I bought 2 shirts at Padini... murah jer.. sales kate kan..

den Dinner kat chicken chop at bandar....den jalan jalan kat pasar karat...

Was fun tapi.. tu lah tak dapat makan "Seoul Garden" huhuhuh..... tak ape tak ape
Today nak gi jugak .. if ben tak nak gi i gi sorang.... hm....
Dah lama mengidam ni.. huhuh... Seoul Garden.~~~ here I come......

Akhir nya tercapai jugak impian ku...

2010-07-20T10:39:00.000+08:00

Selama ni aku selalu membayangkanya hingga termimpi - mimpi tapi sekarang tidak lagi huhu
Sebelum ini aku ingat tak nak tukar handphone tp badan dh berkenan so aku ambik keputusan drastik dan beli jer huhu
Actually now im blogging using my E72 lh hehe ingat nak beli bb tp no money no talk lah huhu okay lah c ya

Facial expression dont lie

2010-07-08T07:05:00.002+08:00

I dont know why, but I think..
How plastic I pretend to be, my facial expression could never lie...
Like yesterday, I was AGAIN being elected as AJK Protokol for the marketing day...
And seriously I try my best to reject it... but I can't .. the lecturer was pushing...
She said she need my expertise...
Well.. supposedly I should be flattered hearing that compliment coming from a lecturer that really goes for perfection...
Actually I do.. I really do feel the heat of being shinning as a god... but at the same time... I still thinking of quitting ... ways on how I can remove myself from that organization.. hm...

Then the lecturer told me to relax cause I look tense not as usually.. my face show it all.. huhuhu...

Then baru I cooled myself down.. trying to think of a positive thing...

HU,,,,,,,,

Yes .. aku jenis nyer senang berubah huhu so tetiba jer aku jadi ingin menjadikan semua ni berjalan dengan lancar.. hahaha

Sesi Suai KEnaL kolej siswa...

2010-07-06T05:36:00.004+08:00

Malam tadi macam pukul 10pm 11pm aku dah enak dibuai mimpi...
And then tup tup jer aku terdengar bunyi bising... bunyi suara orang tak puas ati,..
Aku dengan mamai nyer cube lah bukak mata.. ingat kan dorang ni complaint sebab tak dapat kolej.. so aku cakap lah.."korang tidor jer ramai -ramai kat sini"
And then bila budak yang bising tu bla.. baru aku sadar ya g budak tu memang duduk kolej, so buat ape lak dia nak complaint pasal kolej.. aku pulak yang suggest nama dia sebab dia punye group belum ade rumah...

Pastu aku tanya lah budak budak ngan dia berborak..
Rupanye topik perbualan diorang adalah sangat HANGAT - "Seniors" tak puas ati sebab kononnye junior junior ni tak reti hormat diorang... and diorang tak kenal mane senior mane junior, so diorang nak buat malam suai kenal... supaya sesama kenal lah masing masing...

Benda - benda macam ni actually memang selalulah di buat kat kampus yang kecik ni... tapi selalu nyer membuat kan junior2 berase tak best dan tidak puas ati... come on aku pun dulu time senior aku buat dulu aku rase macam nak sepak sepak jer...

Tapi biler aku fikir kan balik mungkin ada kebaikan nyer.. so daripada diorang buat benda ni tak ikut sistem yang betol baik aku take incharge awal-awal.. not that I want to show who is the boss but I just want to make sure everything run smoothly without any interruption from "pak guard"

So aku minta JPK ade skali... and semua siswa join sekali.. so meaning its being organise by JPK not just by a random person that konon nyer Senior...

Memang pack giler ah... bilik bawah ni yang dulu nyer sebuah surau... Macam sardine...
The juniors masuk macam lebah... sekumpulan macam tu...
But the so called seniors.. masuk ala hai... lambat.. di ketuk baru lah nak gerak...

Aku terase tidak irritated situ... okay...

Then everything start.. aku biar jer semua cakap.. biar dorang "seniors" tak kira lah part 2 hingga part 6, lantak lah dorang nak buat ape...

Firstly juniors introduce themselves one by one... then seniors plak..

Each "Seniors" ade jer yang dorang nak tambah selepas dorang kenal kan diri ... macam korang jangan sombong, rokok pandai lah cover, solat jangan tinggal... and banyak lagi lah..

Then when it came for my turn to speak... setepek! kena semua kat muke... biase lah aku pulak,...

Mulut aku yang laser ni boleh buat orang marah and terase hati... tapi so what.. aku cakap benda yang benar.. Siape makan cili dia terase pedas nyer... siape terminum cuka dia terase macam nyer...

Basicly what I told them was... here tak ade Seniority or Juniority(ade ke perkataan ni?!?) tapi at least.. every one greet everyone.. senyum.. and all.. SEKIRAnye ade "Senior" yang perasan diri dia Senior ape lagi "nganjing" jer senyum... biayoo budak tu terase.. and same gak.. sekiranya ade juniors yang kerek.. Senior pun macam biase lah.. nganjing jugak lah...

SO fair and square right???

But by these... semua Seniors muka bengkak jer... huhuh...

So what... jangan lah nak tunjuk belang yer... if tak puas hati jadi NR k??

And yang terase diri dia duduk dalam tu.. tapi sebenarnye NR tolong ah.. sedar diri sikit yer... ye ye berkobar kobar cakap... tup tup NR... jangan sampai dapat kesalahan tatatertib sudah...

Okay lah... kang lagi panjang lah coretan aku ni.. petang kang ade class kul 2pm jer.. hmm... okay bye byee...

First day of being the super seniors...

2010-07-05T05:37:00.002+08:00

Just now I woke up really at 4am something... find myself sitting in a pitch black room, with me
being the only person that awaken... as always toilet is my first stop before the day start...
Then I remembered that today is Monday...

What a better day to start this semester with doing a 'sunnat" fasting...

The word click into my mind... SUper Seniors... When I walk out off the room... I will become a super seniors..

But why I don't feel anything... I feel like the tittle should not be exist...

Its weird seeing my juniors, feel "best giler" ade super junior... konon nyer skrng dorang dah senior lah.... hm...

Pelik lah... pemikiran manusia ni... kadang kadang tak boleh di terima akal jugak...

Hm... k lah nak g solat subuh dulu...

Choir .. Qualified ke aku?!?

2010-07-05T05:18:00.002+08:00

For orientation, dulu UiTM panggil "MMS" Minggu Mesra Siswa.. but starting this semester they called it "MDS" Minggu Destini Siswa...

This semester I thought I don't wana join it, since I'm busy working at McD... but then when my friends phoned me saying that they need help with the choir for the UiTM song, rase keberatan lak nak tolak...

Lagu UiTM itu kan lagu korprat if they (the juniors) cannot feel the rhythm then, no use lah being UiTM student right???

But the question is.... Am I really qualified to teach them??
..
Well I know I love singing.. and I know I love music... and I know a bit about the voice technique... just a tiny bit...

So ... boleh lah ajar dorang... huhuh.. bukan yer untuk professional kan??? at least dengar sedap okay lah...

Anyway... I had fun during the lesson.. they all sporting giler... tak rase tension pun.. walaupun sempat practice untuk berape kali je...

Yang buat havoc time practice tu the guys ah especially these 3 guys, I think their name are Uzair, Harith and Azhar, if I'm not mistaken lah... cuz they want me to remember only their name.. (since tau tau lah aku kan jenis nyer susah nak hafal name orang huhuh).. The girls ape kurang nyer.. biler lelaki dah active dorang pun naik seh ahh.. :P

Tapi best ah... walaupun aku pun "PM" Pembantu Mahasiswa... tapi dorang bagi respek kat aku...

hm.. itu jer la...

Tulis blog kerna simpati or luahan hati?!?!?!

2010-06-03T13:06:00.002+08:00

Ade yang mengatakan kite tulis blog ni cume nak meraih simpati...
dan ade yang kate tulis blog cume nak luah kan ape yang tersirat di hati...

Well semua depends on individu itu sendiri...
But for me myself... Tak ade makne nyer nak orang simpati...

I blog to share everything, I'm mean everything with my friends yang jauh nun di sana...
Since aku malas nak tulis surat kat dorang cuz... sekiranya aku tulis surat to them.. then I have to photostate it and the cost of stamp is like mahal yo... KAlau sorang tak ape gak ni ramai...

Blogging for me is like a journal.. not a dairy... Journal something we share, dairy is a secret...

Since everything about me is not a secret... so... thats why I pour everything here...

ANd I dont ask anyone pun to read my blog...

ade ke aku pergi jumpe semua org and say hey... please read my blog... tak kan??? so...

ya... aku tak minta simpati pun...

Cuz I stand on my two feet.. tak perlu simpati dari orang...

Jatuh Motor kali kedua

2010-06-03T11:58:00.002+08:00

This time is not my fault okay...
I was on my way to Taman U and then suddenly mase pusing sempang tu, my break won't work.. it loosen already...
I gune lah break tangan...
The bike skidded cause ade banyak pasir kat sempang tu...
Then terus lah I jatuh... hehehe...
I manage to save the bike... Take ape ape rosak pun...
For me cume kene minor bruisers jer... tak terok..
Cume kat tangan and kaki...
My mom tak notice pun huhuh...
Juz friends kat work place jer notice...
Harap harap cepat baik... huhhu

I wanna post some pictures tapi the internet sux...

hmmm...

2010-05-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

Aku dah seminggu dah ni keje... well not exactly a week but a weeks plus plus lah...
I'm still in the learning process of getting use to it.. still being treat like a new kid in town... huhu..

YOu know me.. if aku tak biase with the situation.. I'm going to be quiet like a mouse... dorang buat joke ke ape ker.. aku cume senyum je.. sebab aku rase awkward ...

Well they all nic and everything.. helpful (which thank god) and talkative... like me with u guys.. but me with them is like pendiam giler...

they are all open-minded suke gelak ketawe.. fun lah.. tapi I still cannot fit in... kenape ek????

And people thought I can get along easily with people.. huhuh...

Just ask them.. AKu macam poyo giler... like a loser there... diam jer... sepatah orang tanye sepatah aku jawap.. hhuhhuh....

May be Aku dah change kot... hhehehe
Or its just me.. if dalam alam pekerjaan aku akan pendiam n if dalam alam pembelajaran aku active... macam juga dulu time aku kerja kat giant... pun sama... tersenggeh memanjang jer aku huhuhhuh

2nd day kerja....

2010-05-15T21:59:00.004+08:00

Wah finally... aku dapat kerja kat McD starting esok ...
Anyway tadi 2nd day ku kerja (training) tak McD... it was ... fast... and clean huhuh

Tadie kerja bahagian fries... like kene cepat and pantas .. tak terase pun mase berlalu...

And panas uhuhuhuh...

Esok I start kerja 8jam... from 6pm til 2am..

Finally I got the chance to work with one of the world larges fast food restaurant..

I think i got a job... maybe.. just see lah

2010-05-13T15:56:00.003+08:00

On the way back home on 11th of may, after affan n udeen balik... I ride my bike back home...
Bile sampai skudai jer, I saw this adverd at the UTM SKudai punye McD. "TEMUDUGA TERBUKA".. and I was like interested with it but then tak stop pun... just continue riding my bike until i reach home..
I decided to go that evening to apply but then... I slept the whole freaking day sampai esok hari baru bangun meaning yesterday lah...

Then I went to the McD. place after zohor I think, they asked me to fill up form.. and thats all they will call they said.. but i doubt it at first... but then around 5pm... I received called from them asking me to come for interview today... at 10am...

I went just now.. they give me questionaire to answer and ask a bit of question about myself.. give me a letter informing that i got to go on "on the job evaluation" for 2 days... 4 hours each day starting tomorrow 10 am....

Im soooo excited...
But!!! wait... tomorrow is my bufday.... and I start my training esok jugak??? okay.. that great!!!!! maybe tomorrow will be my lucky day,... huhuh..

I really hope that I got this job... at least tak boring duduk rumah,

I'm planing to keep working even though dah start blajar... kerja sebgai part time lah huhuh...

Baru Ku Sedar....

2010-05-09T08:15:00.003+08:00

This things I just realised when Debab & John nak balik hari tu...

Actually bukan dorang jer lah... I'm talking about my friends dulu kat brunei jugak....Dorang dua ni sebagai medium yang buat I opened up my thought about it.... hm...

You know, actually kawan yang selalu kutuk kite or yang kite selalu gaduh dengan is actually kawan yang kite akan treasure sampai bile bile... aint it right??

Time debab and john nak balik thats is when I feel the vibe... the sincerity....of friendship.... I didn't feel this time saying goodbye with my other friends...

Now I know who I can count on bile kite dah abis blajar nanti....

Thank you...

4.5.2010.

2010-05-04T06:54:00.003+08:00

Right at this moment, all the feeling that I've had for this month being mixed and jumbled up...
I don't know what to do or what to say...
What I know I'm prepared for this last battle...
And I can't wait for all of this to finish....
I promised to myself that after everything is finish I would reward myself by eating "pelam"
Since the tree is exactly beside the examination hall so right after the exam.. I'm going to make sure that I terus pergi petik buah nyer... uhahahuah

But still nervous nyer!!!!!!!!
People said I rapat ngan Puan T...... and dorang cakap she likes me so die akan mark y paper mcm tutup mata jer... tp newsflash guys... I never ever ever dapat A's for her paper.. okay!!!!
So yeah....

Rasenyer boleh ke dapat A ni?????? hm.... takot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay lah wish me luck...
Eh salah... doa akan aku berjaya....

Facebook why? why why???

2010-05-03T14:36:00.002+08:00

See the above image...
Asyik ni jer keluar bila nak masuk laman web facebook.. arghhh bengang seh....

And I'm using Broadband celcom tau bukan Uni punyer wifi... hm...

Btw esok my last paper uhauhauhahuau best nyer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dituduh...salah ke aku??

2010-04-25T23:49:00.009+08:00

SEriously... Malam semalam aku time lepas solat maghrib I was eager to do more revision... sebab exam pagi td... but semua hasrat hancur lebur bila I received a text messages from her masa lepas isyak... I feel stress and teros pening... mood nak belajar terus tak ade....

Dia memang saje jer ker nak down kan aku time nak exam ni???

Bila aku tak nak masuk campur erti nya AKU tak nak masok campur FAHAM!!!!!What is the point of telling me that I made ur mom CRieD???
To make me feel devastated??

If thats the reason... then CONGRATULATION !!! you succeed....

Hey you

YEs you... (you know who) If you read this I hope You realised that I'm talking to you...

"kau kan BEK" as you describe .. as in mengganjing & sarcastic giler... kalau lah aku tak fikir yang kite dah berkawan 2 tahun and aku dah anggap mak ko macam mak aku...aku dah lama call ur mom and tell her everything A to Z... tak perlulah aku nak jadi poyo and senggal nak bagitahu adek ko... ape barang... sorry ah... and about your sister aku tak bermaksud pun nak gtahu dia ko duduk luar... like I thought itu yang ko keep telling everyone that "Kak tinggal kat rumah along"
News flash... perempuan, macam semua kat satu kampus ni tak tahu pulak ko duduk luar.. so bukan dari aku sorang adek ko boleh tanye... banyak lagi sources dia boleh find macam.. facebuk...
Aku tipu orang, aku tipu lecturer.. just untuk kau! and... u give me shit!?!!

Seriously pasal ko jer semua lecturer cari aku.. semua orang cari aku... kenape dorang tak cari balak ko je kan senang..

For your information lagi, because of the complaint I'm receiving no thankz to you.. I know Everything what u do, tempat tinggal ko and even your ReSult...so??

Maybe ko akan cakap "so what ko dah tahu semua, ko nak blackmail aku lah, ugut aku?"
Well you have nothing that I want....

Just that yes I am Blackmailing you!!! If you ever contact me again lepas ni.. telling me all this shit... yang buatkan aku rase macam nak membunuh diri sendiri sebab berase bersalah then aku tak akan fikir panjang untuk menjatuh kan ENGKAU! and this is a warning!!!

You know what I'm capable of so don't try me... susah macam mane pun aku akan buat.. walaupun akan menjatuh kan maruah ko dan aku n merosak kan prinsip hidop aku...
btw...Friendship kite dah lama habis when u start Lie to me.. LIAR!!! so itu ko kate kawan.. memang aku kenal ko dah lama thats y aku tahu ko tipu ke tidak... and ini fakta bukan dari sape sape.. aku diam kan aje... tapi bile dah lama mengunung that why... aku jadi terlalu benci ngan kau...

About your mom don't worry, aku cuma akan balas text message dia if it concern about me...
if ade unsur unsur pertanyaan pasal ko... aku tak akan balas... sebab kang aku buat mak ko MENANGIS pulok...kan....

piece of advice: cermin diri tu... tengok betol betol... ape yng terjadi kat engkau... itu jer... jangan terpesong... Allah maha kaye.. dia akan bagi balasan yang cash delivery.... Change... sebelum ko menyesal... kesian mak ko... dia sanggup msg org lain semate mate nak tanye kabar anak dia.. bertape syg nyer dia kat ko... tp ko?? hm...

Hope this is the last time I talk about you in my blog... sebab pembace pun dah boring kot rase nye... so... if terjadi lagi, action will be make on u!!!!

k lah.. aku dah penat menaip... nak bg msg tak ade credit.,. so aku use belog je lah... biar semua orang tahu perasaan aku,..aku dah minta maaf tapi it seems like the message fail... so.. aku rase biar lah aku berdosa... aku rase lebih baik aku dose kat engkau dari kat tuhan...

BYE

Pagi yg tenang....

2010-04-24T07:38:00.007+08:00

Wah ... paginyer aku online.... uhuuhh

Hm.. cuma pagi ni rase malas sangat bersiap untuk belajar... mungkin lepas membelog aku boleh rase initiative untuk belajar kot......
So.. people keep asking me "How is your Organizational Behavior Exam semalam?" and I'm bored plus annoyed answering it..

Cause... I couldn't finish 1 Freaking question in section B that consist of 20 marks out of 100 and also to top it up... another 1 question in section A which is 5marks also I couldn't manage to do...

Not because I'm stupid okay... everyone know how to answer all the question semalam maybe because the question was easy or the reason that everyone was actually work hard for it and study....

So.... why why why tak siap kan... sayang nyer...
its due to my stupid time management...

You know what I did??? Time orang tu cakap okay you may start... I boleh pulak doodling the answer on the question sheets.....

Doodling answer tak ape at least nanti tak lupe right??? I always do that.... but usually take up only 5 minits or so.... ni tak.....
I spent 30 minits on that...
So memang tak sempat lah nak siap kan semua....
I realised that I belom siap dua soalan is when the examiner said .."you got 5 minits left"

And I was like F*** S*** stupid n bodoh tak???!?!?!??!?! I got all the answer in my question sheet but 2 left behind tak sempat nak tulis .... giler ah...

If my calculation is correct... If all my answer semalam semua betol... then I would be able to get 75%. hm... plus dengan carrier mark... I think I would be getting A or A-... hmm... my dream of dpt A+ dah tak ade hhuhuhuuhhu....

Boreng....

actually I tengah online kat depan bilik ni sebab kat luar ni baru dpt wireless.... and angin dia sejuk and best jer.... macam mendodoi aku untuk g tido balik pulak....

Bah bruneian fren ku... doa doa kan tah aku inda malas macam dulu ah... hehehe... inda ku mau fail lagi nie...

And kepada semua orang Malaysia... " SELAMAT PAGI MALAYSIA!!!!!"

oh oh ... nearly forgot, kepada semua kawan kawan... yg tk anggap aku kawan pun jugak...yg actually menduduki exam MUET!!!!! good luck!!! and CayOKK!!!!!! hehehe.

K lah bye bye,..
adious migos...

2010-04-24T07:38:00.001+08:00

Emo tetiba...

2010-04-23T22:10:00.002+08:00

Actually I tengah do my revision ni Investment smbil dengar my mp3 then tetiba je lagu Kelly Clarkson berkumandang....

And the funny thing is that every time I heard that song ... it makes me shed tears... I don't know y... is it because at times i feel lonely and lost?!?!

Well I always lose people that I love ...

I made the wrong choice thinking that miracle will happen, I broke-up with the girl i love most, hoping that by then she would wait for me until I achieve everything... but now... now... end up she with some one else.... and us lost contact... hmm....

and then I my friends...

When I found the true batch of friends.. faith spread us apart .... I had to leave the country FOREVER...

N now... when I thought I had found the one true friend for life.. she is gone....

my social life in Malaysia is sux... I keep losing friends.... firstly the best room buddy (P...) then the groupies(F.... & D...) then the laugh-able duo (K...... & L.....) then the bro (i...) and now, the bff(E...).

Banyak kan the list ... i know... its me yg ada problem... so... tak ape lah...

now lets look at the lyrics and buried it in ur head:

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Okay I'm going to stop procrastinating :P

2010-04-21T16:06:00.004+08:00

Hahaha like the picture above I'm sick and tired of procrastinating....
Bah belajar tah ku ni udah... bangun awal lagi... hehehe...

So far my learning period is "not bad" cuZ at least something masuk dalam otak right...

Just pikir cia... jumaat ani ada exam Organizational Behavior and Sunday nya Investment... mana jua kan ku blajar tu...
Mestilah aku focus more on investment cuZ I think iya lebih payah rather than O.B. yang ganya membaca and comman sense...

Lurus kan???

Napa tia rasa macam time....

Flies rapidly...

Ngalih dah ku mengajar masa ani... inda tah terkajar udah bah.... macam my life time ani pun nada fun lagi...

CAuse I stop going shopping (1 factor is bcuz nada duit hehe) I stop going to movies.... and I stop jalan - jalan ke bandar....

Boring idop ku uhauhahauhauaha....

And plus ++++ My motor rusak!!!1 Cana kan ku jalan - jalan time cuti ani nanti... or find my a job..

Without job = no money = no shopping = :'( uhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhhhuu

Okay lah...

to all the Malaysian readers sorry that you find yourself difficult to read today's punye post cuz I tend to mixed up with bruneian Slang... Entah lah... rase macam rindu kan bahasa brunei...

And to all BRuneian... awu deh... masih pandai ku ni bekurapak bahasa barunai... dont wori fluent lagi ni.... mai tah testing... heheheheh...

Bah bah... muleh tu dulu... tata....

Kenape perlu belajar investment??

2010-04-18T20:30:00.002+08:00

Hm... aku sekarang tengah pening belajar subject investment...

Sampai ketahap memikir kan kenape perlunya kita belajar subject investment...

kenape kenape?!?!?!?!?!

Hehehe harap harap en Kamal tak bace ni... nanti mati aku hehe...

bukan nye aku tak suke... tp mcm kekadang tu bile nak buat tak faham kenape n macam amne nak buat....

I think sebab aku tak faham concept dia lagi kot...

Dah lah aku fail test 1... tak tahu lah ape terjadi kat test 2 hari tu... huhuhuuh..

terlambat ker aku kalau aku kate aku baru nak cube paham kan concept dia sedangkan exam final hari jumaat ni??? heheheh.....

Dah lah aku nak g makan dulu... bye bye bye...

Feel good saying it...

2010-04-16T15:14:00.003+08:00

The word only has 5 letter words and is so simple but yet its so hard to say it aloud...

We gona feel as if something large stuck in our mouth when try to say it to someone and really mean it...

I'm so relieve that finally I conquer I own mind and have the strength to say it...

It has been one whole semester that I avoid having more than one sentence with him, not because I'm afraid but the feeling of "shock" still overwhelm me... but now finally God give me the Will to confront him...

Its my fault actually...

He did try to get back with me after everything...

But then I'm the one who give him the cold shoulders...

The fact that I finally have a whole night talking with him make me feel good... and at ease....

And that also make me text a sorry sms to the person I'm currently having a fight with.

Hm... live is just like a fairy tale... it only come as we want when we tend to work for it.... not by only saying about it....

Now I'm officially done with the whole inside conflict and focus more on my inner strength... hope it will stay this...

And I will always prey for all my frens.... and if with me.. everyone is my friends...

Otak oh otak...

2010-04-15T14:14:00.004+08:00

The only thing that stuck in my mind is when am I going to start study?!?!?!
And when I'm thinking of it I either going to sleep or feel bored of it...

Finally the final examination is around the corner...
My first paper will be Organizational Behavior which fall on 23/4/2010..
Then Investment which will be on 25/4/2010..
Then lastly.. Human Resource Management which is on 4/5/2010...
I know... 3 subject jer...

And that y my expectation for this semester is vert high... tp condition of studying macam tak mengizinkan jer...

I just which I got....

My own study table and chairs.. tak payah lah n g library of hang kat bilik junior all the time... hm.....

Its a hard decision for me to let go... heheheheh... so brain... do ur job......

Kawan...?

2010-04-13T20:43:00.005+08:00

Friends are like diamonds to me... I never want to hurt them... I always try my best to support them... I will never ever want to lose a single friend... but sometimes I have to be strong and let them go...

When I still have a temper or use high tone towards anyone or scolded anyone.. this means that I still care for that person... but then when suddenly I just ignore everything as if that person is not exist then... this mean that I'm MAD ... and it is not easy to see me mad at someone...

Lately I just lost a friendship... A friendship bonds that being tied for almost more than 2 years. I tried to hold it... to save it but I just couldn't take it anymore... It hurts me so badly...

I understand the situation and the problem that he or she is having that's why don't want to pressure more.... but if things is getting worse... effected me... my reputation.. and a lot of lies... then... who should I blame??? me?? still me????? come on... it happen to me.. not no one influence me... but I think.. its because he or she already found new friends... friends that are fun to hang out with... Jalan2 and all...

So now I just have to break it...

Now I think I realize something...

Things that make me had to pull myself away from others...

I think people treat me like a sampah...

Sampah before dibuang ianya diperlukan dan digunakan...

After that dibuang begitu saje...

and I'm like that...

When needed people search for me... ask me to do this and that....

when things finished they just ignored me...

My Friends always "merugut" if sekiranya dorang kena makan sorang2... but don't they realise that I always dine Alone without complaints.???!?!?!

Its okay... I don't asked for sympathy... because I already used to it...

Maybe I was born to please people... thats why... 3 days away from people release all the tension I have had for this semester...

Now I already accept everything...

I'm strong this way...

Group Drama cct ku semua committed...

2010-04-06T12:44:00.002+08:00

I'm so proud to be in the same group with you guys...

Do I need to list down all of you punye name??? I think tak payah kot...
Sebab if I listed all the name kang... tahu lah kite sape yang tak committed...

Seriously saying even the worst among the worst pun... yang asyik dating, or berak or mandi lambat pun still dtg... walaupun lambat still ade rase tanggung jawab.... tapi yang ni... hm...

I don't wana say anything more... but overall I'm proud of you guys...

You are the best ...

Aku tak menyesal satu group ngan korang....

Bila sudah serabut...

2010-03-22T10:54:00.003+08:00

I just read one of my friends blog and it makes me realise something...
She wrote and I quote “sesiapa yg tidak merasa tenteram dengan Allah, tidak akan merasa tenteram dengan yg orang sekelilingnya”

Since yesterday and of cause today, I don't feel comfortable with the people around me.
I feel like people are trying to take advantage of me...
Thinking that I'm "PoPuLAr" therefore they force themselves to be close to me,
without once even think that I have a feeling...

Again & again I said to them I'm not "POPULAR" and its true I'm not...
Just that I tend to know stuff even I don't need the info.

I guess with the assignment, Drama (which consist of 50%marks), unconditional friends attitude & Final Exam yang semakin near...
My head + my mind dah serabut...

Serabut ... Serabut... serabut...

That is why starting yesterday I just shut myself...

Just ME, Myself & I

Just can take it anymore with other people's mind... Its complicated...

Nak bercerita masalah ngan orang lain pun takot orang tu salah faham...
Bila dengar masalah orang pulak aku yang pening...
SO?!?!

Hm....

Thats y I've decided...

I have to make a temporary changes...

it may takes days, weeks or even months for me to change back...

But if my guess is right and if I do have a TRUE & LOYALTY friends...(which I in doubt) they will stick by me...
whatever my temper & condition is...

Books + laptop will be my companion... My room + Library where I will be...

I know I'm becoming a nerd..so what... that is me temporarily....

*dzan is depressing*

Hari Yang SungGuh relaX dan Stress Free..

2010-03-15T20:54:00.000+08:00

You know today, it seems like it was another sunday for me...
cause supposely I got class Human Resource Managemebt jer...
tp that class also cancel... so what did I do the whole day???!?!?!
well...
I tried to belajar by going to the library but then..
it lasted only for half an hour then...
I pinjam the last episode of buku Haryy Potter, naik bilik then start bace hehee...
then boring turun gi bilik part 2...
tidor huhuh...
biler it was like 4 or 5pm, it was raining lebat giler..
so I naik bilik continue bace my book..
heheh I felt I live in Heavy hehehe...

p/s I fasting today... so maybe this what u called nikmat puase... okay lah c u... bye bye...

Kami Menang!!!!!!

2010-03-13T14:16:00.003+08:00

For your information I join nasyid competition once again huhuhh....

Yes D'zan join nasyid... eventhough it is not my genre but yes... I joined ...

Anyway... my group won!!!!!! first place baby... hhehehehe...

N I got a new title from my friends... Anuar ZAN ... ridiculous kan?? I know..

I know I ruin the whole nasyid thing.. but yeah.. heheheh at least my group deserve it hehehe...

I think this is the last time I ever going to join nasyid kot.. hehehe...

And by the way... the staff pun buat persembahan malam tu... best... macam choir... the back-up punye suare memang nicely done... I love it...

YE! Aku marah!!!!

2010-03-12T16:45:00.002+08:00

I feel like screaming out loud!!!!!!!!!

"bodoh !! Bodoh!!! Bodoh!!!"

Tapi aku tak sampai hati.. memang aku sedang marah tapi aku masih boleh fikir dengan rasional...

come on my temper never last long... few minutes or hours will do... but dont.. I said DON'T ever trigger it back....

Thats what happen to my roommate... dia tahu dia bersalah... and konon nyer nak jumpe nak settle... tapi dia dah salah di situ... Sekiranye aku betol nak ckp ngan dia..
Tak perlu dia cari aku.. aku akan teros cari dia...

Tapi kenape tidak??? sebab aku masih fikir kan dia kawan aku... so aku diam jer... try to pendam kan supaya aku lupe... tp bodoh nyer mamat tu.. bile aku said NO! meaning NO!!!! jangan pakse....

Pastu.. lepas event... aku dah lupe kan everything... like biar lah... rite??

Ade pulak minah BODoh!!! ni message aku time aku tengah tido.... one of the team members dorang lah .... memang kene lah ngan aku... STUpiDO!!!!!

Tak ke perasan aku makin marah?!?!?! dah lah kacau orang tido.. pastu ungkit kan bende yang aku try and cube lupe kan.... MENYIRAPnyer!!!!!!

Now lets we see about the BOSS... like aku selame ni anggap dia macam "Adek" aku... aku selalu give him advice... tell u the truth ramai yang complain pasal "dia" even the team members themselves... but aku denied everything... aku still think he can be a leader...

Rite now I still think he can be a leader.. but he need to be a leader to himself first...

Maaf lah here I said it... I never EVER want to be involve with the JPK lagi....

even tho I knew... I was going to be stuck with them... because of the MPP thing.. but I will try to avoid them...

They CAN walk on their own feet.... Clearly they don't need me,....

OH NOoooo My Investment...

2010-03-09T13:17:00.002+08:00

My test just now was so them easy... yet... I'm going to fail..... cause I forgot the formula like shoot giler!!!!!!!

BiLa dihujung pengajian....

2010-03-08T08:05:00.007+08:00

Ini lah abg & akak senior yg dulunya time mms kitorang... mengajar lagu Wawasan Setia Pelajar....
Ni time dorang punye dayout game.... part of the task in "treasure hunt"

Module 5 & Nasyid practise

2010-03-08T07:38:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was another tiring day for me....
My Uni got this thing ... a program which they do it every semester...
called Module...
This sems punye module is all about your interviews and ethics...

We are suppose to have it from 8am till 6 pm.. stop for lunch like about 12-2pm...
But thank god... Puan Suria manage to cut the time till 4pm jer ...

Then like around 5 or 6pm tolong Benny printing & teman Mia makan....

After isyak I thought to study a bit cause on Tuesday morning time class I got Test1 investment... but then again... my nasyid groud but practise kat dewan for sound checking.... like I ain't ready.... whua!!!!!!!! :'(

Pastu habis pukul 12.10am.... like very very letih....... sampai no voice ...

Pagi... tengah basuh baju... sambil tunggu baju spinning dalam washing machine I nak study sikit for test esok.... hm...

MAcam mane nak prepare ni......

Investment complicated tahu tak.......

okay lah bye bye...

DBS Part 6 Day - Out

2010-03-06T16:39:00.000+08:00

The event was held in Hutan Bandar Putra ... And it was REALLY Happening!!!!

You must be wondering why I menyebok join part 6 punye event when I still part 5 hehehe...

Me and Erin were there cause we are being specially invited by this lovely class to be their judges hehe...

In other words help them lah....

Me & Erin pernah satu class dengan dorang so we already know them quite well.. their attitude and all... thats why we don't mind..

When you get to know them , they actually FUN....

WE suppose to be at the venue around 8am, but due to minor transportation problem we arrived around 9 or so... but things under control...

Pagi ade breakfast, then ade minum minum... tengah hari makan kat rumah Pn Thahira...

NyaM NYum!!!!!!!

It was really enjoyable... and KENYANG event... like Pn Thahira plan everything perfectly...

almost perfect hehe :P until she kena tepong by them all... ~~*no pictures sorry takot Pn potong markah pulak*~~ with the help from miss Zafirah OFCUZ!!! hehehe :P

okaylah thats all for today... really exhausted .. and they made my day...

At least the first day of me trying to recover from the sickness fill with laughter and enjoyment...

So malam ni need to start belajar since I dah sihat huhuuh....

JuST me? oR WhaT?!?!?!?!

2010-03-05T17:08:00.004+08:00

Im' not complaining or anything but it gives me a smack on the head....

When you are good and healthy, people will stick with you and asking for your help....
but when you are down and sick... can you really expect people to help you?!?!?!

The answer is NO... in fact they will try to avoid you...

Maybe its just nature of human being to be selfish... wanting only the good one and eliminating the bad one...

I thought I do enough good deeds so that later on if I need support from anyone it is easier..

I guess I was wrong...

Someone told me that when you are sick, the pain is actually the amount of sin you had made and had to pay...

I'm in pain + everyone is trying to avoid me so that's mean I got a lot of sin huh?

Hm....

If that is so, I think now I need to be alone for awhile to recovered...

p/s about "avoiding me" part is just how I felt... I'm not pointing fingers to anyone... just that when I need someone to share, he/she is not there...

Stomach Pain & Vomited....

2010-03-04T22:11:00.004+08:00

I'm seriously in pain right now....

Maybe it is because I ate to much chillies..

I had to go to the toilet every hour yesterday morning from 2am.. till 5 am... to vomit

I put a grip and went to class this morning.. but unfortunately.. every 10 minutes or so I had to excuse myself...

Then after class I decided to call my mom and asked her to bring me to clinic since I ain't got any money with me...

Benny also got the same disease like me... but then he kept on "berry"2x je not much of vomiting....

The Doctor told me that it is because the food I ate... Benny pun same... So he gave us medicine... for Sakit perut and Muntah2x for me... but Benny kene bagi ubat stop from berak-ing...

Alhamdullilah.. I tak lagi muntah2x.. tp the perut is still in pain.. so I tak berani nak makan nasi... I just gona eat roti until it is secure...

Hm... ape lah nasib aku kan...

Okay lah bye bye for now....

Hectic & Tiring

2010-03-03T08:02:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel like giving up...
All the workload...
All the test.. and studies...
Add up to burden also my unconditional social life...
with my FRIENDS...
with lecturers & staff in the Uni...
with my Brothers...
my parents...

I'm not complaining with the way of life I'm having now...
The people surrounding me are meant to be in my life...
And I'm glad ...
They sometimes cheer me up
but also at time they made me wana cut my head off...

It seems like this week is one of those days..
that I should just put my head up and walk through it...

Its hard but I need and I must be strong...
Emotionally and Academically strong...

Please god... give me your wisdom... give me strength...
and let me be more focus on the right path...
The path that I planned 2 years ago...
Upon my feet touched the ground of a Country called Malaysia
ANd right Now
it seems like I'm on the "fun & games" routes...

P/s: I got sore throats + I'm joining the nasyid group for this up coming competition.. so how??!?!?!?? then ade quizes, test and asignments..whuaa!!!!! die die die die....

Pidato JPP (Segamat "N" JB)

2010-01-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

It was a shocking news that was being elected as one of the candidates running for the "Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar UiTM campus JOHOR." It is a REALLY big position. In JOHOR there are 2 UiTM campuses; UiTM Segamat(the main campus) & UiTM Johor Bahru city campus (which have only 3 programs). Mine is the prestigious UiTM city campus, but unfortunately small and I have to compete with candidates in UiTM Segamat ... it is hard...

The structure of the election is that 2 person from each faculty will be chosen.. so in my faculty which is Faculty of Business Management there are 11 candidates (and I'm the only 1 from JB)

The results...........

Welll of cause lah I KALAH DUH!?!?!?!?!??!!! haahahaah big campus have more influences than small ones...

But then again... I was ranked top 4 in the faculty... so thats mean... Segamat people also vote for me... WAH!!!!!! I'm glad!!!!!!! Banggenyer walaupun kalah... kalah dengan maruah okay...

Line of candidates from Faculty Business (7) & Faculty Accounting (3)

P/s this boost up level of esteem...

Kursus Sembelih

2010-01-20T10:16:00.003+08:00

My Uni as in UiTM JB held a programme called Kursus sembelih. They sembelih 100 ekor chicken and a cow. Supposely it started at 8am but due to everyone woke up "tooo early" it started at 9am or so...

Think I join sembelih the chicken?

Of cause NO..

Not because I couldn't or afraid , but it is because of the feeling of kesian... People said if sembelih and you rase kesian at the chickens, hukum dia tak sah... so I tak buat lah...

Just look at the picture... How ganas they are handling the chickens... carnival giler kan???!?? hehehe :P

But I tak lah curi tulang... I did help cume melapah lembu jer... It was fun thought..

After siap semua kerja, the staff cook the chickens and cow.. at lunch time thing about 3 or 4pm... everyone were called to eat secara ber-dulang... best... agak seronok ah... hhehe

I'M weird???

2010-01-18T01:31:00.003+08:00

Well actually I don't mind people think I'm weird.. cause I myself think I'm weird...

But this word weird mean something else... its got to do with me being close with all my guy juniors part 2... and as if saying that I'm GAY...

AND its coming for a lecturer... A lecturer that never ever teach me... and I doubt that she even qualified to judge me ...

I can't blame that lecturer at this moment cause I don't hear it with my own 2 ears... she told to one of her student and he told me...

So to make everything crystal clear... I will meet her as soon as she and her family got back from INdonesia...

But mean while.. I'm going to ignore everything... cause the juniors are my friends....

Malam Gala M.B.A. & Program Mentor Mentee

2010-01-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

The night was an okay okay event... where there are two performance by my friends... and of cause FOOD!!!!!! huhhuhuhuhuhhu.....

And also the opening ceremony of the program Mentor Mentee created by the members of the MBA (Massive Business Affiliation).

By the way I won the "Tokoh Korporat"... = the best corporate look...

This is the prize... okay lah.....

p/s watevet lah benny... XOXO hahahahhah

Confuse................

2010-01-05T22:19:00.002+08:00

I want to be close and I wana share my thoughts and all
but I'm afraid no one want to listen...

I tried and I tried but I'm afraid the trust that I give being missed used....

Trust...

Hm...

It is difficult to find...

But I'm being me... easily trust and giving faults hope...

Should I just stop being me and start being selfish...

Cause it seems like people see me as a MR PREFECTLY KNOW IT ALL & SHOULD BE CLOSE SINCE HE KNOWS ALL THE GOSSIPS....

Seriously I hate being label like that....

I take things seriously and I do CARE about people...

I told people the facts...

Although I hear rubbish...

I know... here you will see the other side of me...

the person that always have problems...

Well ... u never know...

If you ask me I will say I have no problems... cause its true...

The stuff I pour here is nothing serious cause its what I thought and feel NOW!!!!...
I may have been exaggerate a little bit or add too much emotion into it but hey... and up to you to believe it or not...

Need to be strong in mind and heart

2009-12-29T14:57:00.002+08:00

I need to be strong...

Cause I know me... If I don't motivate myself, I'll fall...

If I don't straighten my priority... I will be slip...

My feelings and emotion cannot lie...

I know I want to be like last time... cheerful and fun..

But it seems odd... I don't it will be the same...

Its not fun anymore...

There is no more bonds...

The path is different and I accept it..

Hurt yet heal everything...

Tired & strange at work...

2009-12-26T00:04:00.002+08:00

Well.. just finisihed wrinting my report for the Seminar kepimpinan... Perghh... So pening my head... heheheh

Anyways today I met 3 familiar faces.... 2 of them I think my juniors from UiTM JB, and one is my neighbor...

And also today ramai giler org... like I tak duduk pun satu hari ni.. and guess what?!?!? first time ever my money biler time nak kena kire... short tepat RM10... hm... weird kan.. so yah...

I finished packing for tomorrow ...

MMS 27.12.09

2009-12-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

Well it seems like I'm going to be jaga-ing mms lagi semester ni... I wonder what it is going to be like hm...

Well... firstly baju belum lagi kemas... malas nyer nak kemas,...

Pastu esok kena gi kerja sebab ganti untuk hari ahad,..

esok kerja 10am -8pm

sabtu pun sama

So meaning hari sabtu tu from Where I worked I I'm gona go straight to campus...

Rindu plak kat kolej...

hm... don't know lah...

btw I gona try update as frequently as possible k...

My F***ing result...

2009-12-10T19:01:00.002+08:00

I sux big time huh?!?!?! I dah agak dah this will happen.. hm.. I am stupid...

My juniors accounting student last paper..

2009-11-17T13:51:00.003+08:00

Is it wrong for me to call them "my juniors" or will they get offended by that statement "juniors"
Well I'm currently part 4 and they are just part 1 plus I'm way older then the rest of them. So.. hm...

Anyways this 2 pictures below is taken before their last paper. Student DIA part1 session july dec 2009

See the look on their faces... Can't wait till the exam finish and enjoy their holiday..

Happy Birthday Azim..

2009-11-06T10:13:00.002+08:00

We've been friends since childhood in fact been best-friend as long as I could remember...

We've change... and go separate ways...

But still the friendship is there...

Even I'm not there to celebrate your important day...

I'll always right by your side...

I would like to wish Happy Birthday My friend...

Mudah -mudahan tah ko finish with flying colours...

and cepat - cepat tah bertemu dengan jodoh.. hehehehe...

ITs a Horse!!!!!

2009-11-01T08:53:00.004+08:00

Okay the picture above is one of my mind mapping note I produce
during my revision on the subject Called LAw251...
I never do mind mapping before cause I hate subject that involve me to menghafal..
For example History god I hate it.. I always dreaming in the class..
all the dates and places and names.. hm..
I like something that can be answer using common sense...

Anyway back to the story... Affan introduce me to this method of Hafal-ing and mind map
On the sub-topic under "Offer" there is this is case : Guthing v Lynn. It talked about a horse...
So to make me remember... I use my professional drawing skill to draw a horse...
But then, when I showed it to Affan.. He said and I quote " macam babi hutan"
At least macam beautiful pony ker.. ape ker okay lah.. ni "babi hutan"
Erin and Ben also agreed with him.. Siot!!!!! like HAmpeh!!! giler dorang ni...

Don't no how to see the real talent on drawing betul... (hehehe..)

k.. tata for now...

LAw 251

2009-11-01T08:42:00.004+08:00

This is the book that I am reading.. and trying to remember the facts, sections and cases...

SEE how TebAL the book is... my god!!!!

The one yang I fold is the one that I haven't covered yet.. YEaaa me... like the exam is on this coming 5th of NoV

Next exam -> Law 251 on 5/11/09

2009-10-31T10:16:00.006+08:00

Well i'm over with all the problem I got for the past few days...
I guess the problem came when I'm stress with my first paper which P.R.
Thankz to Erin and Affan, I got over it...

After my P.R. paper I keep trying to focus on my Law paper which is around the corner..
I tried to make my own short notes but it turn out .. me copying the whole book.. hahaha

But still cannot stick it all in my mind...

At the same time, I taught Affan his weak subject.. Far100 which stand for basic accounting form 4/5 for me... like really easy yet he doesn't know how to do.. Actually he knows how but he is the type yang need logic explanation why is this and why is that.. (kinda like me dulu hehe).. Hopefully he could answer all the question because while I'm typing this blog he is in the examination hall taking the exam hahahahahahah...

Goodluck yeah Juniors Accounting student part 1...

Oh yeah I forgot to introduce to you guys.. Affan is my junior.. he is currently part 1..

I'm currently part4 and I don't know somehow I'm close with the juniors part 1 rather than my own batch or other parts...

Okay then.. blog again next time...

Nak hafal LAw ni current kat library hehehe...

*dzanworld.blogspot.com*

What Should I do?!?!?!?

2009-10-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

I try to forget everything... put it aside... and forgive...

But it seems like every is getting worse...

I was accuse for something I did not do...

By someone/ a person I respect as my own younger brother...

I avoid from seeing people so that this story didn't reach to anyone knowledge...

I keep quiet and I denied everything.. So that things didn't get worse...

But he the one that open up his mouth ... telling people what he did to me ... telling people what I had done to him which is not true...

And what did I do.. just keep quiet..

Cause I believe truth will be told...

I try not to hate.. but its seem like it is impossible not to...

He told me he hate... never want to forgive me...

but I guess start to hate him...

Cause not only me.. everyone that close to he start to ignore...

And now I know the true colour of his partner...

I told she is innocent... but actually she is not... she is like needle ...

People keep on telling me stories about them.. should I believe them.?!?!?!?!

I don't want to see both of them..

Not because I'm afraid... Its because I don't want to swear and gain 'dosa' ...

And their face really make me want to puke..... argghhh...

What ever it is thank you to my friends.. especially my juniors that always be right by my side to cheer me up... and help me facing the day... and advice me... and give reason to stay back in campus... and and hehehehehe....

Thank you guys...

Raya raya raya.......

2009-09-23T06:51:00.002+08:00

Photos will be post up let on when I feel like it...

Hm... so...

Today is officially the 4th of Raya... I still can't enjoy raya as I still didn't enjoy raya as I used to...

My mind is somewhere else...

I got lot of reading to do...

Starting from Monday next week.. I got quizzes and tests .. for the whole 2 weeks... EVERYDAY.

Then after 2 weeks is my final exam...

Like??!?!?!?!!!?!? MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven't prepared a thing!!!!!!!!!

none....

This semester I thought I could relax a bit but then..

This semester sucked up my brain ability...

Cause all the subject need my "remember" and "focus" strength....

Like for example LAW... Malaysian Economic... IT... Public Relations... and Arabic...

Especially Arabic.. I'm totally screwed...

Argh!!!!!!!!

Help me...

When can I start do my study...

Where is tuition teacher when I need one...

Today my family plans to go to "air hitam" then Perak.. to raya at my mom's punya sister...

I thought of not following... but since I'm the last son.. "yang bongsu kata kan" I must go....

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Guess the only thing to do.. read along the journey... hm.....

I'll try my best lah....

p/s Selamat Hari Raya to all and for UiTM buddy ingat ingat lah... yang kita banyak exam lepas raya ni huahauhauhauahhauahhahahahahah

HPPY BIRTHDAY YANA!!!!!!!!

2009-09-21T13:49:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI ULANG TAHUN!!!!
UMUR SEMAKIN MENINGKAT...
SO SEMANGAT PUN TIDAK BOLEH GENTAR!!!!

MUDAH MUDAHAN YANA DAPAT APA YANG YANA DOA KAN...
AMIN!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally the I got the answer... thank you...

2009-09-21T10:00:00.002+08:00

" i moved on, i am happy with who i am with now. i am finally clear with what i want, i know who i want. and i don't want to live in the past" I re-quote what Her boyfriend quote from her...

I guess... shes right... I should moved on too...

But I think I have... moving on...

Just that... I hate losings...

Losing as precious as a friendship and relationship...

I did being hit with a similar statement by my brother...

Asking me to forget everything...

The past... the family-angkat I have, the experiences and friends...

But I said NO WAY!!!

Maybe I don't believe in long-distance relationship either love, family ties and friendship...

But still I secretly without telling anyone... cherish the bonds... keep it and store it.. hoping it will last...

And surprisingly.. it does last... still now..

I still in contact with my Brunei family - angkat.. my bestfriends...

Well yes not like old times but still they are in my mind...

This is just me...

When I open up my heart fully to some one I get emotionally attach...

They will never be forgotten... Even though it hurts badly to think of it...

I respect her decision... moved on...

Finally I have a reason to close this door, locked forever and throw the key so that I could never look back... and never talk about it...

Maybe by now... I could open up new doors... completely different ...

Takes time...

But hey... need to focus on my studies and career first then... this stuff...

Besides... I got friends to fill my time...

I let Allah to decide everything

kalau ade, ade lah.. kalau tak ade.. so what... Allah sentiasa membahagia kan umat nya in one way or another.. segala nya ada hikmah nya...

2009-09-21T08:16:00.002+08:00

ku been tagged by Zura!

- known as : Mohd Ramdzan Ismail/dzan/jan/zan/ram/jandi
- born : 14th May 1987
- hair color : Black
- eye : Really Dark Brown

SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER...

- Fallen off the bed?:Yup
- Broken someone else's heart?: May be A long time ago..
- Had your heart broken?: Well yes many time.. but hey.. I still standing rite?
- Had a dream come true?: Well my dreams always turn out to be the opposite..

SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...

- Wearing : Sleeveless shirt and a khaki pants
- Listening to : The cheerful voice of family in the early morning...
- Located : My Brother's room
- Chatting with : No one
- Should REALLY be : taking a bath

SECTION 4 - DO YOU...

- Have any piercings : No
- Drive : Pretty much
- Drink : Well beside alcohol stuff then yes..

SECTION 5 - LAST PERSON YOU...

- Hugged : My mom (di pagi raya)
- IMed : Eraimi(My buddy)
- Talked with on the phone : Yana (Cuz she got free talk time on maxis due to her birthday today..
- Text : Yana

SECTION 6 - PERSONAL...

- What do you want to be when you grow up?
: At first I wana become a doctor,Now I'm guessing A lecturer suit for me... '''''''' I could also have the title Doctor when I complete my PHD. ANd maybe someday own a Mc Donald franchise...

- What comes first in your life?
: Family (including family angkat) and Friends!!

- What do you usually think about before you go to bed?
: People around me...

SECTION 7 - FAVOURITES...

- Show : Hm.. well just watch all..
- Store : do I have to choose??
- Food : Ayam masak lemak cili padi...
- Color : Range from White to brown to black... Basicly pastel and natural colour lah..

SECTION 8 - DO YOU...

- Like to give hugs : Yup..
- Like to walk in the rain : only if I have to
- Prefer black or blue : black
- Have stuffed animals : Yup (given by friends)

SECTION 9 - THIS OR THAT...(pick)

- Pierced nose or tongue : tongue
- MTV or BET : MTV
- 7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek : I have no idea..
- Chocolate or flowers : choc.
- Color or black-and-white photos : Colour.. tapi if ada sepian mode kan lawa..
- Stay up late or sleep in : sleep in
- Hot or cold : Cold
- Sun or moon : Moon
- Left or Right : right
- 10 Acquaintances or one best friend : Both.. To share everything
- Spring or fall : Fall
- Happy or sad : Both thats make my like..
- Wonder or amazement : hm.,...

SECTION 10 :Firsts...

- First self purchased CD : hm.. think dzan think
- First pet : a cat(an austalian cat given by jiran) called honey.. unfortunately kena curi
- First piercing/tattoo : nooo way....

SECTION 11 : LASTS...

- Last GOOD cry : Time mms early this semester.... hehehe
- Last phone call : last night..
- Last time showered : last night at 8pm..

SECTION 12 : CURRENT...

- Current mood : blank...
- Current food : nothing
- Current hair : a messed

SECTION 13 : WHO LAST...

- Made you smile : family...
- Saw you cry : all the pembantu mahasiswa... and the juniors.. hehehe

SECTION 14 : WOULD YOU RATHER...

- Be serious or be funny?
: Like to be serious always yet funny at times..

- Drink whole or skim milk?
: Whole Milk

- Spend time with your parents or enemies?
: Parents cause they are my banker...

SECTION 15 : DO YOU PREFER...

- Do you prefer gray or black : Black
- Lust or love : if i choose both??!?!?!?
- Sunrise or sunset : Both...

SECTION 16 : ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

- Do you like anyone?
: YES

- Do you believe in love at first sight?
: YUp but I never had one...

- Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl?
: USed to...

Busy busy busy .... Busybody?!?!?!?!?!

2009-09-07T14:33:00.002+08:00

Well the thing about me is that I terlalu ada rase kesian...

Like I dont know how to overcome that feeling...

I didn't say that Im nice.. cause I dont think I am...

But yeah....

This is way... I don't want to be close to anyone...

Cause once I am close.. then I will care... and the level of my caring-ness will reach to the top-est level.. that at times.. something simple will make me sensitive..

But this is who I am....

Yes I can change.. but I think ... people need me to be like this...

I need my self to be like this.. cause if not.. my life will be just plain boring....

Well this is me.. what to do...

Hana Yori Dango .. Change my perception...

2009-07-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

I just finish watching "hana yori dango" aka boys over flower.

All 2 seasons plus the final movie..

I was so nice.!!!!!

I love it...

Thanks to Ikki who introduce to me...

I was so sad.. romantic (but so jiwang... itu yang aku tak boleh handle tu.. giler ah..)

And on of the song in the movie really touch me..

It called:

Utada Hikaru – Flavor of Life Lyrics

Lyrics & Music: Utada Hikaru

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayonara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

tomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten de
shuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsu
ato ippo ga fumidasenai sei de
jirettai no nan notte? baby~

arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

amai dake no sasoi monku ajike no nai doku
sonna mono ni wa kyoumi wa sosorarenai
omoitoori ni ikanai toki datte
jinsei suteta mon janai tte

doushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to “uun. nandemo nai”
sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunai
sinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai
“aishiteru yo” yori mo “daisuki” no hou ga kimi rashii janai?
The flavor of life

wasurekakete ita hito no omoi wo totsuzen omoidasu koro
furitsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yo

daiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana mirai
teni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai
“arigatou” to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

translation:

“ありがとう”と君に言われるとなんだか切ない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法淡くほろ苦い
The flavour of life

There’s something saddening about when you tell me “thank you”
and the magic that stays even after goodbye
is a touch bittersweet
The flavour of life…..

友達でも恋人でもない中間地点で
収穫の日を夢見てる青いフルーツ
後一歩が踏み出せないせいで
じれったいのなんのって, baby?

At this, neither friends nor lovers halfway point,
like unripened fruit dreaming of harvest day
because you can’t take just one more step.
what’s with being vexatious all about, baby?

ありがとうと君に言われるとなんだか切ない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法淡くほろ苦い
The flavour of life…..

There’s something saddening about when you tell me “thank you”
and the magic that stays even after goodbye
is a touch bittersweet
The flavour of life…..

甘いだけの誘い文句味気のないトーク
そんのものには興味はそそられない
思い通りにいかない時だって
人生捨てたもんじゃないって

Shallow invites and dull conversations,
theres nothing there that can arouse interest in me.
Even when things don’t go your way
That’s no reason to throw your life away!

”どうしたの”と急に聞かれると”ううん、なんでもない”
さようならの後に消える笑顔私らしくない
信じたいと願えば願うほどなんだか切ない
”愛してるよ”よりも”大好き”の方が君らしいじゃない？
The flavour of ife…..

“What’s wrong?”, you suddenly ask. “Uum, it’s nothing”
but the fading smile on my face after “goodbye” just isn’t me.
The more i wish to believe (in us), somehow makes me even sadder
Rather than “I love you” isn’t “I like you” more you?
The flavour of life.

忘れかけていた人の香りを突然思い出すころ
降り積る雪の白さをもっと素直に喜びたいよ

Those times, when out of the blue, i remember the fragrance of the one i’d almost forgotten.
I just want to be able to enjoy the pure white of piled up snow!!

ダイヤモンドよりも柔らかくて温かな未来を手にしたいよ
限りある時間を君と過ごしたい
ありがとうと君に言われるとなんだか切ない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法淡くほろ苦い
The flavour of life…..

Rather than a diamond, All I want is a future thats soft and warm.
To be able to spend even just a limited time with you.
There’s something saddening about when you tell me “thank” you
and the magic that stays even after goodbye
is a touch bittersweet
The flavour of life…..

SORry guys...

2009-07-26T12:21:00.002+08:00

Okay!!! Im so sorry to those yang terasa...

I didnt mean to not remember you guys punye birthday...

It just slip off my mind...

K Happy Belated Birthday to all of you yang the birthday aku tak wish...

And Happy Advance Birthday to all of you yang the birthday is coming but I maybe I will forget...

Hehehehe...

Hey... im only human you know...

I do make mistakes...'

Taken from my indox in Facebook

2009-07-21T08:24:00.003+08:00

To: ALL my friends... Pierre s . ULF and RHANE... and that we know....

Tetty IzzaBelle

July 19 at 10:24am

I know we don't really talk,
We're not really even friends now
But I want you all to know I'll be there,
Through the thick and through the thin
I wish we could still be close like before,
Like the way things used to be
I was there for you,
And you were there for me
Even though we're never talking,
Or together hanging around
I just want you to know,
I'll always be here to pick you up when you're down
my feeling says friends slowly moving away
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!
I still need ur shoulder to cry on
i still need ur support
Also Remember me next time you cry,
I'm here to help,
To be with you
Side by Side

p/s : Please friends, dont leave me behind :'(
ive been so messd n f*ck up lately...
everything seems not right

BECAUSE I THINK, im losing u all..... :'((

Nysa Pierre

July 19 at 11:54am

tetty ku syg, once we are friends, we will always be friends :)
no matter what happen, no matter how fucked up we are, if u need us, we will be there for you :)

time surely flies by dear, we might been busy with our own work, our own commitment, our own life, yet I always remember each and everyone of you, eventho we cant always meet like we used to. because eventho m not the greatest friend of all, I will always love kamu :')

insya allah, i will not let u guys behind, u guys are the coolest the greatest the bestest friends i could ever get. and most of all, i love u guys.

we're not losing each other, as long as we have the faith and the trust for one another. no matter how far we are, across the continent sekalipun, on the other side of the world sekalipun, we are together.

I always pray for all of your success, happiness, wealth n health.
eventho we're not having the moments like we used to have everyday, remember, we're one, we're friends, we're sisters, we're brothers, we're bestfriends, and most importantly, we are family, a unique family, the loving family, the everlasting family :)

I love u guys

p/s : ramdzan, we miss you

pp/s : syg i love u

ppp/s : michael jackson, u are missed, rip

pppp/s : aku syg kamu semua semua pun, semua semua sekali

*paluk kuat2

with love,
nysa :)

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Butter Salleh

July 19 at 2:11pm

"u guys are the coolest the greatest the bestest friends i could ever get"

thats true..

ka, dont say that. no matter what.no matter what. YOU GUYS ARE SERIOUSLY always be in my heart. i noe it sounds cynic. but its just so true. wen im with my others friends, i rather feel empty. something is missing. THE THING that WE ALWAYS HAVE. that i could never find in other. thats it, we will have each other. back side front ups and downs. no matter thru thick or thin life is.
you guys will always b part of my life eventho we dont hang o share shits, or good ones like we used too. but we will find our way to that again... eventually. just dont forget each other. just HOLD on to what we have now. im holding to that. we will have our moment together.

i noe we dont have that same old laughs. but lets make a new and GREAT one.

i think. my life with you guys are the best thing that i can ever ask for. its such a great adventure.

and i miss EACH one of you guys. ramdzan. everyone.

hugs kamu semua...
i LOVE you guys.

Always Friends

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Syu Avas Fongs

July 19 at 5:50pm

to my dearest pierre,

For I am here
Though we're far apart
YOU GUYS IS always a part of me
When you're down and trubled
And you need some love and care
I'll be there to brighten up
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there

just msg or call
i'll give it hundred and 5 percent to be there..
to be around.

i miss you guys and sayang my pierre ..
hugsssss kamu kamu ...

Teddy Heart
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Farhana PY

July 19 at 10:21pm

this is deeply from my heart.

you guys, the pierres.. are few things in my life that im afraid of losing.
for that i treasure every moment that we had gone thro together.
eventho i might not always be der for you guys..
but i will try my best to.
remember i will never lupakan kamu2 hingga ke anak cucu klu ksampaian..

tetty, ure not losing anyone
we still here for you with you.

i miss kamu semua jua and
i love you all..
hugs

D'zan Ismail

Today at 8:24am

Distance make us a part...

But it wont stop us from loving each other...

Silent makes us forgot...

But it wont erase all the memories we had had...

For you guys..

Still near...

Still in the same country...

For me...

Its hard for me to accept everything in one go...

I had to leave the place a grew up...

People I know...

People I LOVE...

Friends I would never think that can be my friends...

When it did.. I had to leave them...

Its hard... It hurts..

But this is where I come from and this is where I should be...

My love to you guys will never die...

As long as we still in the same century and the same planet...

There is a a way to meet...

Maybe not now ... maybe not tomorrow.. or even next year...

But trust me...

When that day come... It will be the best moment, we going to remember and cherish it till we die...

I think I'm settling in Malaysia.. Cause my families are here...

But I try to frequently visit my second families there...

When I start working okay?... I Promise you guys that...

Just never lose contact with me... I need you guys in my life...

Love you all....

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY IKKI!!!!

2009-07-20T02:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IKKI!!!!!!!! YANG KE 19 YEARS OLD...

Okay..Firstly let me introduce this guy...

His name is Azwan Azroie

Nick name "IKKI"

relationship with me.. he is my Brother (adek)...

Well I know I know...

I'm the last child in my family but seriously.. I really picture him as my brother...

I will try hard to help him... I think he will do the same thing too...

Ikki I'm sorry okay about your birthday prank tadi...

I know I shouldn't involve your love life and commitment into the prank - ing stuff but...

Hey.. It works right?

I will always be your brother no matter what happen...

You can punched me anytime... even all if my teeth fall off... you still are part of my family...

Ill be by your side through thick or thin...

And thank you.. for being there for me ... and the support you gave me...

Love you my brother...

p/s to pierres & RHANE... I still love you guys... And wont forget each and every one of you...

2009-07-19T17:37:00.003+08:00

I woke up at 10am just now...

My god ...

My head was spinning like a roller coaster...

My nose was hurt like someone put a big ball in it...

Damn...

Then I realise...

My phone...

It was shut...

Battery ran out...

I plug it into the charger then start switching it on...

BAPAK DIA!!!!!

I got miss called and messages from last night due to sleep early...

From my mom, my brother, E... and Y...

Sorry guys.. didn't realise it...

It was something I can not control...

I was sick and still am...

Hm...

Well the flu getting lessen...

and I prayed to god that by tomorrow it will be gone...

Pray with me people...

tonight I need to finished up an assignment with my group about the 5 forces by porter's..

Then At Midnight I got plans.. hahahaha...

I'll Blog about this later k?

Don't want to ruin the surprise just yet... hehehe..

Okay lah bye bye..

A Tiring day it was

2009-07-18T20:30:00.003+08:00

Tiring day it was today...

Didn't eat the whole day..

Just had a "nasi goreng sotong" for dinner..

This was because of a program called "Module 4"

All semester 4 students must participate this program in order to grad later on...

The activity was kindda like a treasure hunt that used up your brain ability and your physical..

The slack was that I started up with a wrong foot

Where the program suppose to start at 8am

but I woke up at 8am by a friend who's telling me that one of the event person really mad at me

I went straight to wash and dress myself

When finally I went down to the hall

The person that was mad at me, asked me to drop and give him 25.(pushed-up)

And I did...

Humiliated as he asked me to in middle of the wide space parking lot..

I was a centre of attention..

After finished, I entered the hall like nothing had happened...

Ignoring the humiliation he given me I sat on the front row...

The night before I ate this medicine given by a doctor to cure my flu

Maybe the med was too strong for me...

Even I today I already done the 25 pushed up, I still felt sleepy...

In the hall, I didn't hear a thing...

My mind was somewhere else...

Can't even focus...

So I frequently went to the gents to wash my face...

After the lecture given by a staff from UiTM Segamat, we all gathered in front of the library

And that was where the program starts..

We ran, we asked.. We seek, we solved...

Everyone was tired...

No food was given...

No drink was given..

Well actually we were a breakfast of a bread and a small box of orange jus

But hey.. we suppose to be given a bottle of mineral water right??? cause it used a lot of energy and sweat pouring out...

We got second place, and we proud of it... cause frankly, almost all of the team member in my group, I never imagine to work with since they are from differ class..

After the program... I really feel tired till now... my god.. so I guess I want to go to sleep early... hehehe bye...

Penghuni - penghuni bilik A201 which is my room.

2009-07-16T06:42:00.002+08:00

To think positvely..

2009-07-14T12:41:00.002+08:00

I need to be alone at this time...

Need to think wisely...

Need to think positively...

Need to think critically...

I'm in need of help...

But the thing is no one know how to help me...

Rarely do you find me in sick moments where I just lay there on the bed...

But when I do get sick its look like hell (like now)

My head will be spinning like a roller coaster ...

My nose is running till it getting red-ish...

And my temper is not control-able...

Got sensitive easily is a popular activity during this days..

I want to talk, message and call and even chat through YM or MSN

but the only thing I manage to do is pouring my mind out through blogging...

hm... maybe God giving me a sign..

A sign saying that I suppose to be alone...

With no one to care and no friends to listen...

Peace out

Lonely...

Its really hurt...

2009-07-14T12:17:00.002+08:00

I'm in pain right now...

Not because of a person or a thing...

Its within me...

It can't stop changing my mood and making my day worsen...

"It" is refer to the flu that I'm having since last Thursday...

I did went to the clinic the very next day which is on Friday since tak tahan...

But till now even though the medicine is nearly finish, I still not cured..

Help!!!!!!!!

I tried everything but non works..

I missed those ice cold drinks that ran in my throats...

I felt jealous to all my other friends...

They could study and have conversation with lecturers with any disturbance...

I sat there in the class quietly and trying to pretend my mind in the class

even though my mind actually disturbed by my running nose...

Oh God please help me...

Yes?! No?! Yes?!?!

2009-07-13T14:50:00.002+08:00

Is it a mistake or is it a right thing to do?

I asked her to accompany me for dinner last night

Finally she agreed

But I should have known that yesterday is a Sunday night and it is the last episode of Mentor

So the number of people gathered and stayed at the front Tv. in the Cafeteria are unimaginable

I felt awkward when I first reach the cafe

Then I saw her sat beside her friends

I began to meet up my friends there and talked for a while

then I text her.. asked permission whether she sure wanted to be seen in the public together with me..

I replied its okay we are just friends right..

Then I began to take my steps towards her

Few steps left before I reached her table, I heard someone called up my name saying that my food was ready.

I turned and started towards counter

Paid for my food and walk straight towards her and sat beside her

I ate up my food while having conversation with her

then suddenly..Black-out...

We went back to our own college...

then the current went back on again...

I called her till my phone credits ran out..

During the called I asked stuff..

Stuff I thought I wouldn't ever ask

Did I make a mistake or it is just an opportunity for me..

I learned a lot about her now...

She tries to denies things but at the same she admits them...

But what I like about her..

She has the same principle as mine

So now we are like what people say " TEMAN Tapi MESRA"

No strings tied

Happy Birthday!!!

2009-07-13T14:30:00.004+08:00

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First of all I would like to wish Happy Belated Birthday to Naqy ... sorry dude.. baru nak post up here.. sorry .. this is the only picture aku terclick di minda hehehhe....

And I would also like to wish Happy Belated Birthday to Erin!!!!!! Yesterday birthday dia... Ko dah tue DOH!!!!!!!!! Anyways.. perkenalkan she is my Bestfren here in Malaysia... My twins in crime.. and my sister in sad moments...

Back to the story.. yesterday kitorang gi makan kat Jusco Tebrau, kat Stone Grill. Then went to watch movie .. Obsession.. the movie okay lah not bad...

Thankz to Ainz for belanja-ing hehehehehehe....hahah pictures will be post up later..

Fin262 results

2009-07-11T19:41:00.004+08:00

This is what I got for my fin 262 hehe.. berbaloi gak aku belajar kan??

Is this what I want?

2009-07-11T17:42:00.003+08:00

For once I can see rainbow in the sky

trying to clear the cloud and make ways for sun to shine

I look at myself through a mirror that reflected the true image of me...

Is this what I want? I asked the mirror.

I've been lying t0 myself all this while.. I tried to be someone that I'm not...

Deep inside me, I buried the feeling I never thought would felt again..

Ever since I left her, the guilt inside me froze the feeling into stone...

Never do I care to look or search for someone to take or replace her..

Lied if I didn't tried but never things are working out...

Since the feeling frozen deep into my heart...

But for some reason I met this lady..

This cherish, sweet lady...

Never thought things would turns up side down...

I tried to stop it but I can..

The feeling that I buried deep inside is trying to come out...

It melts from frozen stone into something that is warm and peaceful..

But I try to slow things down

Cause I'm afraid...

Afraid that I might be wrong...

Maybe its just lust not the feeling that called LOVE..

I don't know what is LOVE anymore..

I felt it and left it long time ago..

But now it came back to me...

Is this just some test from God to me?

To test whether I can manage my life with everything...

Then I asked myself again

Is this what I want?

Isn't this just how I felt...

How about her?

Do I think she will accept me?

I don't even know her..

And what does she know about me ?

She knew that I've been gossip of having a relationship to my best friend..

which is a lady... just like her..

But does she know the best friend is just like a sister to me?

And could she accept the real me..

The complicated jerk that always trying to change and take control of the situation...

The answer went down to "I don't know"

I don't know, I don't know and I really don't know...

Maybe ... Just maybe I'm in LOVE... but it's to early for me...

I need to focus on my studies and my future career..

I like to message her and I like to call her...

but I would appreciate if she could understand me more...

cause I'm a one timer type of person, and proud of it...

I will let her go as soon as I know she has someone...

but for the mean time... I like to keep her just the way I found her...

Not more than that...

Just sharing thoughts and experiences...

People may not understand me...

but I have my reason...

and it is afraid.. and coward..

of being committed and cheated...

Is this what I want?

I DON'T REALLY KNOW ANYMORE

My days..

2009-07-05T16:29:00.001+08:00

A lot of stories to tell.. but feeling lazy too write.. maybe next time.. just news flash.. tomorrow i will be start my semester 4 ...

Fin 262 FUNDAMENTALS OF FINANCE

2009-06-16T08:57:00.015+08:00

Kat bawah ni is all my notes time aku belajar fin262.. its easy actually tak tahu lah ape result yang aku akan dapat..
p/s.. the notes below is from my finding.. through my intensive revision during the up coming finals.. I took from various of source .. it might seem similar to anyone's notes but it is actually from myself.. studying n finding. Thank you :)

Topic 1

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Topic 3

Topic 4

Topic 5

Topic 6

Topic 7

Topic 8

Topic 9

Topic 10

Topic 11 *the last topic*

This is my result for semester 3, yesterday baru keluar

2009-06-12T12:49:00.004+08:00

click the image to enlarge

Test 1 not so good

2009-06-09T08:24:00.002+08:00

Here in UiTM Segamat,Johor.
Aku ambil short course or what they call it here is intersessi,
actually it is for those yang fail subject tu and supaya tak ada extra semester so dia ambil lah intersessi ni..
but case macam aku pulak berbeze..
aku ambil intersessi ni untuk tarik satu paper semester depan untuk menyenangkan aku nanti..
Subject yang aku ambil called "Fundamentals of Finance" the subject code is "fin262."
Subject ni bagi aku senang giler tahu tak.. tapi... cume... but.. formula yang banyak nak kena hafal and faham..
Aku target mase test 1 hari aku dapat at least 90%++ tau tapi di sebabkan careless pada formula dan kesilap teknikal menekan calculator affect my ans and teraffect juga jawapan yang lain..
and I end-up 77%
like?!?!??!? Sasak ku eh... antah eh... biar tia..
I will try on my next test lah...
which will be on 17th jun anie....

okay byebye